bleeding hearts shed no tears

2010-01-05T17:10:00.002+08:00

New year, new beginning! Ok im not that excited.

Anyway theres a few new year's resolutions

1) Sleep early!!!!
2) Dont procrastinate
3) Be a better hockey player
4) Guitar!!!!

Cruise during the holidays was great! Dont find it boring anymore.

Bought Ibanez GRG! I think i'll spend my time on guitar instead on my studies.

Under 21 starts this sunday, against SRC team 2. Under 21 this year is abit screwed up. Some teams pulled out, actually quite a lot. So less games to play. Well hope we can reach the semis.

2009-12-19T00:08:00.002+08:00

Common test is over!!! Finally i can recharge my batteries, and enjoy a little "me time". So exciting! Finally restringed my guitar. Going to chiong guitar during the holidays!

Watching "Wanted" on HBO now, makes me think of the times i spent with S25. Good old days huh!

Cant wait for the super duper long holidays next year! Hopefully the phuket trip is on. Getting wasted in Thailand seems like a freaking good idea.

Oh ya, brother cock is in India! Missed him so much, ok thats kind of gay. Cant wait for him to get back, and its DRINKING TIME!! Awesome!

Under 21 is in like 3 weeks time! Its like super fast, dont even have time for me to train and brush up. Hopefully things go well, and we can reach the semis. Went to SAS training on wednesday, its been quite long since i played hockey. Practice abit of drag flick, heh can give top net!

addicted to alesana! And hardcore screaming!

2009-12-07T22:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the worst night i ever had. I just cant fall asleep. This is bad. Now i have headache.

2009-12-03T22:35:00.002+08:00

A lot of school work have to be done!!!! And everything has to be done by next week. 2 tests, 2 lab reports and IS presentaion. No time no time!

When feeling stressed up and cranky, listen to screamo!

or have a dose of kellyn retardness.

too concern with school work, maybe its a good thing.

2009-11-26T22:46:00.000+08:00

this week sucks! and my mind is messed up

2009-11-22T22:06:00.002+08:00

E-Learning totally sucks! Its like more work to do then normal school days. Plus self studying unknown and alien chapters can totally kill me. And now im stuck on my Engineering Materials report. I dont even understand a single page of the notes.

So POL-ITE has come to the end. We got 2nd, and scored 3 goals in the whole tournament. Looking back, im still quite disappointed. I got injured during 2 matches, and 1 match i played like shit. Hopefully next year i'll play better. That's if i still want to play hockey. Been thinking about quitting hockey again. Sort of lost my passion to play, and i cant seem to improve. Maybe this is the right time to quit. Plus hockey gives me body aches. My legs are suffering from muscle fatigue, hurts like crap. Especially my left leg.

School's starting to suck, been lagging behind my work. Need to catch up! And i have AMMP test next tuesday. Once again my plan not to study last minute did not work. Wanted to study all 4 chapters today, but i ended up napping. Suddenly just lost my motivation to study, feeling very very lazy!

This whole week is kind of sucky! Dont want to talk or think about it.

Somethings just cant be said to anyone.

my heart is in two different places

2009-11-12T00:52:00.002+08:00

Its 1252 now, and im proud to announce that ive finish my Engineering Materials lab report. So glad tomorrow i start school at 1 heee!!

POLITE just started, won our first game against TP 1-0. Lost my cool and shouted at my captain =\ and i got a real bad bruise on my right arm. Its still swollen now. Tomorrow we're playing against SP. Hopefully my performance can be better.

Anyway, trainings leading up to the tournament, i was sort of frustrated. The thought of everything simply sucks.

And i realise im a busy boy! So many things to do.

I think i should sleep now!

2009-11-03T00:38:00.001+08:00

FUCK!!! Screw hockey!

2009-11-01T22:15:00.003+08:00

Last blog update was like billion zillion years ago. Too lazy to blog. School's great! Didnt realise how much i missmy friends. This sem modules are quite hard, plus the all the lecturers are like !!!. CommTool Kit is like the worse ever module. Stupid IS, 4 hours of boring shit, and i thought FAT sucks.

Been practising for the competition for the pass few weeks. Hotel Calinfornia is super hard to play! So audition today went well, minor screw up at the guitar solo. So after today,less guitar more studying and revising. Yeah im sure.

Polite's in one week time. Very scary, no hope to win already. Always training we dont have the full squad down. How to play like that!

Yesterday suppose to have friendly against SAS and Khalsa, PS brought like freaking lots of players down. But then the it rained. So unlucky, of all days must rain yesterday. Why dont rain today, so i can have my afternoon nap.

OK im suppose to be drafting out my speech now. Bye

2009-10-18T22:30:00.002+08:00

School starts tomorrow. Im sort of excited i guess. One more semester down, 4more to go. Spent the holidays to laze around, while people around me find part time jobs. Gymming with mok, and lots of hockey, both NP and SAS. Seems boring? But i like it. So time passes like super fast during the holidays.

So here comes the next semester. New modules, new challenge.

POLITE starts in about 3 weeks time. Friendly with NYP was ok. Drew 3-3 with them. Scored 1 goal heee!! Getting back my form. Hopefully our play will improve.

Training have also increase to 3 times a week. Going to be super tired.

Cant wait for next saturday, have some Hockey Wooden Shoe tournament. Seems fun.

And i realise that my guitar fees are long overdued. Shit. Suppose to pay up on 23 september. I better remember to ask my mum to write a cheque.

Been proscrastinating a lot. I was suppose to transfer all my ipod songs to my laptop. But until now, i still havent transfer. Going to transfer, when im free.

Nightwish album is GODLIKE!

2009-10-05T23:29:00.002+08:00

Im dead tired from today's training at CCAB. Something wrong with my legs. And the muscle behind my right knee is sort of acting up. It hurts, and i cant sprint fast. Hopefully its just a strain or a pull. Dont want to be some serious injury, and i have to sit out for the POLITE games.

My form kind of suck recently. Cant really play properly. Things will improve in the next coming weeks, i think.

Last Tuesday pub outing was a blast! The acoustic guy Chris was talking about, he's damn good! And i swear, he's freaking good. He plays chords, but its his picking. His finger movement is so fluid. And he got good technique too. After that, Suren camped at our house. Next morning we walked to east coast to have Macs breakfast. And he went to school around 12 something i think.

And Friday was Anne's thingy. Was fun, i think. Finally get to see BFFL. Cabbed home with easties after that.

Im seriously too tired to think or to type out long long posts. Im going to stop here now.

Note to self: I owe neoneo $7 plus.

2009-09-27T22:55:00.002+08:00

I almost killed someone yesterday. With a soccer ball. And that bangla worker was like shouting vulgarities at me? OK the thought of it now is super scary. If the ball had hit him, i'll be in jail right now? But its sort of funny, i shouldnt laugh.

Yesterday celebrated granny's birthday. Im a bad grandson, i dont know how old is she. Ate alot of otah! Booze was ok, wine and beer. Proposed to my auntie to get barcardi and gin next year.

Today my body is still aching. I dont know why. So i decided not to run today.

Listen to Nightwish!

2009-09-22T23:41:00.003+08:00

Most random and retarded thing i saw today was this Indian man wearing a Man u jersey, but he printed Gerrard behind. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THIS GUY?

Gym today, and it feels darn good! And Adam just made my day =)

Really dont know what song i shall attempt to learn. Always hug my guitar hoping to find some songs that i can learn. And I'll end up playing Wonderful Tonight or Tears In Heaven. Fur Elise seems easy to play, until i reach the part with reatarded finger positions. I need a third hand or something. More fingers?

I want to get high on alcohol again!

Fly me to the moon!

2009-09-21T23:22:00.002+08:00

These few days had been a fun packed week! Work at Isetan wasnt boring at all. Infact it was hell lots of fun! Meet new people, getting to talk cock with people. And i get to see pretty cashiers hehe! But walking around from 8 to 10.30 is very tiring. I think my calf developed six packs after that day.

Played soccer on saturday! Love to play in field, much more better than street soccer court. Played for like super long! LOVE IT!!! My legs hurt the next day, but heck!

Went to Rishi's house on sunday to celebrate hari raya. The food was AWESOME!!!! Spicy! Heaven! I should have eaten more, but then because we wanted to swim. Wasted! Please some malay family adopt me, so i can eat nice malay food everyday haha!

Watched Man u's victory over Man City. OWNED! Want to kick Ferdinand and Foster's ass. Puty Berbatov, really no luck to score. And people, please dont over rate Given. Giggs volley and Berbatov header, were all straight at him. Obviously he'll safe it. Glory Glory Man united!

Went out today with S25! Topone KTV haha! Super tiring. Anyway, ive cut my hair. SO NOBODY CAN COMPLAIN ABOUT IT. Share food with Liam for dinner. Im very sure he wants the whole plate. Some people left, walked around bugis. Went home with the mean one.

Gay faggot Bra didnt come. Cheat my feelings.

And im super tired. I want to smash my guitar on someone's head!

2009-09-10T22:21:00.001+08:00

Holidays are so boring! Wish school can start next week.

Performance went well.

Cant wait for their A's to be over.

Boring! Skipping lots of NP hockey training, suddenly lost passion to play for NP. But still going back to SAS, helping PS to coach.

Pedal to the metal! Fender or Ibanez?

Too much Starbucks is not good!

2009-09-08T22:24:00.000+08:00

Tears in heaven.

Everything will go well tomorrow!

And SPCA sucks! Piss me off

Dimples and Samson =)

2009-08-31T22:17:00.000+08:00

Teachers' Day today! Went back to SAS with Jian and cockster Jwong. Wanted to find Chem yeo, and also tried to avoid LOW GEOK PENG! But very unfortunately, when we walked up the stairs, she was just standing there. DAMN! Anyway, missed Chem yeo due to Jwong's persistence to find Mr Ng. Screw him, he gets to see Mr Ng and we missed Chem yeo. Where is the justce?

Good old SAS days! Will missed it dearly. I dont want to grow up! I want to play soccer after Chem remedial. I want to sneak out during Chem remedial to have breakfast at Macs. I want to mix up all the chemicals during chem practical so that people cant use the chemicals anymore. I want to throw G2 pen ink at AH KOW's head. Somethings never get old.

Oh yes i nearly forgot the stupid things we did to Jwong. All the random poling sessions. And there's even a video on youtube! Just simply type in "jwong getting poled". Classic video!

Preparing for my performance on 9sep. Duet with my teacher, quite nervous. My first ever performance! Will be playing Tears In Heaven by Eric Clapton. One of my favourite guitarist! Heh!

So 9sep 12-2pm at Down Town East. Admission is freaking free! But im playing one song though, out of the entire 2hours haha!

2009-08-26T23:54:00.002+08:00

Very very sad. Though holidays started....

Cage yesterday with poly people. Body aching real bad. 2 weeks without exercising is taking its toll.

Dont think i'll do well in this final exams.

Performing on 9 september. Kind of excited.

2009-08-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

Never been sick for so long. Its been about 2 weeks i think. And the feeling seriously suck! Waking up with headache which last the whole day, makes it impossible for me to follow my study schedule. My headache feels like Big Momma sitting on my head! I want to die! And i have mucus and plehgm clogged up in my nose and throat. I want to die, seriously.

And i still have a few practice papers to go. Tomorrow is my first paper, EG1, which is maths. Done all the practice paper, and realise there's always one killer question which is freaking hard. Cracked my brains to solve these questions, but still cannot get the answer. Stupid maths, make my feel cranky after doing it.

I feel so NOT prepared for ETE on Saturday. No more time! Argh! And doing the self test now, looks simple, but its quite difficult! I think im giving up one topic, since i get to choose 4 out of 5 question. And im very comfortable and confident with the 4 questions im going to choose.

Regret slacking abit for ETE, not doing the tutorials regularly. Damn, if only i can turn back time. I could have study harder for lots of exams, and i wont end up where i am now.

Going to sleep early today. Hopefully my headache goes away!

2009-08-13T21:58:00.000+08:00

Blogger have some retarded problem. Weird layout with weird fonts!

Anyway, COMPRO practical test 2 tomorrow. Should be well prepared after i go through the revision questions. And its like the last test of my semester on the last day! Should not be happy so soon, still got final year exams! Quite happy time passes quite fast, hopefully it passes fast for the next 3 years. Heh but slow it down during my holidays =)

Falling sick due to the freaking haze. Ran on sunday, breathed in loads of haze. Plus the fact my brother is smoking while cycling infront of me. Second hand smoke and haze, not a good combination!

Cough, running nose, phlegm and headache! I might as well die.

FAT presentation went quite well. But Chow Wai FUCK was a fucker. Should not say anymore, else my headache will get worst. Byebye FAT!

Should go look at my COMPRO revision questions now.

ZEBRAHEAD!!!!

2009-08-10T00:08:00.002+08:00

ARGH FUCK!!! I cant seem to get the right answers for my online assignment for Eng Mech. Fucking friction!! 2 questions and both WRONG answers, my answers are not even in the multiple choice options! Dammit! I gave up doing it. And at this time pass 12midnight, im feeling cranky. Better stop before i smash my laptop screen.

Have so many things to do!! Finish up on the Eng Mech assignment, which im left with Friction, do my COMPRO project, touch up on FAT presentation, study for COMPRO practical test and study ETE! Shit loads of stuff to complete. Dont think i even got the time to do everything on the list. Probably going to wake up early tomorrow.

Once again i regret not managing my time properly, if not i'll get many things done. Regret taking that long nap on Saturday evening. But im still grateful for the long weekend! One more day to go =(

OK Hangover is an awesome movie! Laughed my ass off! People should catch it!

Exams in like 2 weeks time! Scary stuff.

Oh got back my FAT final test result, 71. Sort of expect that score. But ofcourse could have done better, fucking memory failed me. My memory has been deteriorating! Something wrong with my brain, better start spamming pig brains! Oh well still feel guilty about cheating. Some idiot emailed the teacher, telling him that there is massive and severe cheating in class.

Not sure if i've mentioned yet, i got merit for my guitar exam! Pretty proud of myself. Couldnt have done better!

Im going to jump to my cosy cosy bed now! Goodnight!

2009-08-05T22:25:00.002+08:00

Rain outside my window pouring down

what now, you’re gone, my fault,

I’m sorry

feeling like a fool cos I let you down

now it’s too late to turn it around

I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry

I guess this time it really is goodbye

you made it clear when you said

I just don’t love you no more

2009-08-03T22:39:00.000+08:00

FAT test is over! But it was fucked up! I forget some of the stuff i've studied! Well did something in the test that im not proud of. And i wont let little kids follow my bad bad example.

If only i can walk into a time machine and turn back time....

Anyway jamming session with Chris and Suren was great. If only we have more time and also if Reubs wasnt sick. Chris's Potong Pasir house is like some holiday resort apartment! Super cool, can go there for drinking sessions and jamming sessions!

I find out Guitar Pro is quite useful, especially learning to play songs and stuff. Should use it more now! Learning guitar scales for solo-ing freaking sucks!

This week in school will be quite slack, the timetable. Going back to Island Creamery with the guys on thursday. Our Island Creamery secret, so stupid!

I cant wait for the long long weekend, probably going to finish up my overdue ETE online self test. Hopefully the makrs will count. If not there goes my grade!

Guitar tomorrow! Yeah, hopefully its an hour lesson. So many things i want to learn.

And i realise that every paragraphs has only like one or two sentence, retarded!

2009-07-26T22:38:00.000+08:00

Scary FAT final test, which is like the final year paper, is like in about a week plus time! Scary SCARY!!! 8 chapters of boring and dry stuff have to cramp in my head. And i thought econs was dead boring, there're freaking retarded terms i've never heard of and dream to remember. And so many retarded theories and description! So im using my favourite mindmaps to help me memorise better. Somemore most combine my notes and the slide shows.

Tomorrow is the start of a hectic week. Need to prepare for CATS presentation, and chion my FAT. And ofcourse not neglecting my other modules. Back to the JC hectic-ness, but this time i cant slack. Every test COUNTS in my GPA, which will affect my uni admission. Yesterday my dad went to NP Parents' Forum, something like Parents-Teacher meeting. And so he met my kuku advisor, Yong Hoe. He say good stuff about me! Finally, its been very very long since a teacher didnt complain about me. Theres a briefing about uni's and stuff. Dont stress myself now!

Soccer on Saturday, very please with the attendance. Our clique is like dying out, was telling TK a few days back, alot of people MIA. But cant blame them, studies first! After soccer went to the usual Just Acia. I think Ting wasnt that please, he wanted New York New York or Astons. I want New York New York! Cause got the free candy floss =) Then Mok came to join us. Followed stupid Pig around PS looking for gift for "secret someone/girl". Went home after that. Not a really boring Saturday as i had predicted. Decided to spend the night doing some work, not as productive as i wanted it to be.

Watched Avenged Sevenfold live in LBC, and its FUCKING AWESOME!!

Highlight of the week is on Tuesday. Was on 154 with Jian, then saw 2 loser ASCI students trying to cross the road. Very spontaneous reaction was to point middle finger at them. One Indian, who i swear was related to Raj Kumar, didnt see anything. But another guy, who i swear works out in the gym, saw it. His face immediately change! Like stunned, and wanted to whack me up. Loser cant do anything haha!

This week has been sort of great! Realise my class wasnt that bad. Just hate a few guys, like everyone else. Kevin was right, i should give them more time and talk to them more.

School starts at 1 tomorrow!

Unproductive Sunday sucks!

Looking foward to this weekend. Hopefully going to Chris house thingy is on!

2009-07-19T22:23:00.002+08:00

Ok i dont really know how to start of with this post. I realise that im updating my blog once every week. That means school life totally suck, not exciting and fun at all! I feel so dead in school now. Going to school now for me is to really STUDY! No fun in it ok! I feel that i've changed abit. Maybe cause i dont want to fail anymore, dont want to disappoint anyone and myself and dont want to have anymore emo and depress moments. So motivated to study and score! And i must really admit, i really miss JC people, especially my class. Argh dont get me started on my poly classmates. Not say they are bad, dont know how to describe them.

Well yesterday i organised soccer, and in the end 2 person turned up. Jian and Alan. Went to street soccer court kick around. Then join the ex-SAJC students to play. It was fun, and i get to exercise. Saturdays without training sucks! I dont want to grow fat =( .

After that watch NP div3 match. Maybe im getting bored already! But i need to get my jersey!

Went to town to meet Suren and Chris. Followed Suren around to look for his shoes. And i finally get to buy my jelly frap! But i think there's not much difference, except there is jelly in it. Buy the normal frap! So walk around and talk. Went to my house there to have prata for dinner with my bro. Homed and had mass convo with the 2 idiots again. Suren showed us his VJ hockey girls! Very happy =)

Anyway guitar exam didnt really go as well as i thought it will. Screwed up my D major scales, and the examiner had to ask me to replay it. Bad start ok! And the aural was the killer! The singing part was disastrous! I dont think i get the tone and everything right. Just anyhow sing! Shit!

Yes my ipod has finished charging! Can sleep! But then i dont want to wake up tomorrow =(

2009-07-14T23:45:00.002+08:00

ARGH! I feel like biting and kicking somone! So many things i need to do by today. Edit my CATS group proposal, and suppose to do practice on my COMPRO written test. But i only can practice one question. I need time! Argh! This sucks!

This week is super hectic! Guitar exam is on thursday,abit nervous.

CATS is fucking screwed! Whole group is sort of depending on me! Fuck and the first presentation we got a C! So this project we need to get an A. But some fucker just dont want to cooperate. ARGH!

I need a beer!

Someone let me bite you!

2009-07-12T22:48:00.007+08:00

Sunburn! Yesterday went to sentosa with SA clique, plus jwong. Anyway wanted to do stupid things with Jian, but in the end didnt. We played beach volleyball. Was pretty fun, especially when you get the hang of it. After that went in the sea for a swim! After that they buried me, buried Ting and Cheney's legs. And the Ultimate Challenge is burying Jwong and making sure he cant get out. After that played soccer, but then no one brought soccer ball. So end up using Dog's volleyball.

Well i cant believe i still have sunburn despite putting on sun block! I wished my arms are longer so that i can reach for my entire back! At least my sunburn wont be as bad as Nic's. Nic's back was freaking red! A true man u fan! Haha.

After that went to SuperDog for dinner. And listen to professor Jwong's lecture. Very interesting and informative. I bet everyone learnt alot!

Went to Delta watched NP play and suppose to collect my jersey. In the end the guy didnt bring it. And it rained heavily, so the game was postponed. Anyway went to my house prata shop with my brother. Food is not bad. Definately going back there again.

Today was not really productive. I think i cant really study on sundays! Didnt go for my run, cause the sunburn is killing me!

ARGH YES! I finally can play Wonderful Tonight by Eric Clapton. Beautiful song, people please go listen! Finding new bands to listen to on Myspace. Must find something new! Oh ya Zebrahead is damn nice!

New week begins =(

2009-07-05T22:26:00.002+08:00

I have really neglected my blog! Anyway i was really too lazy to update. I'll let to start off with anouncing my CT results! Oh man im so excited haha! Im very x1000000000000 proud to announce Eng Mech 100, EG1 97 and ETE 91! God im so happy! It has been like 4years since i feel smart. Good old days are coming back! Haha.

But i have been slacking this whole week, dont really feel like getting down to work. I must force my self to get back to work! Projects are starting to pile up, so better get it done quick. And COMPRO written test is like in 2 weeks time. Scary stuff! Hmm must really motivate myself to study on fridays. On weekends i cant seem to study much! Education is some scary shit!

Yesterday watched NP played their 1st Div3 match. Their performance is ok, room for improvement! After that met Reubs, Chris and Suren for dinner! Finally we all can meet up together. Went to New York New York to have dinner. Reubs was super hungry,he went to challenge the Super Yankie Burger! It was super funny! We started singing to songs played on the radio and on my ipod, while he's eating. Oh yeah, we cheated too! We like threw away 3/4 of the fries! We threw like a handful of fries into Chris's plastic bag, which use to contain his underwear. At the end of it, it was one hell big bag of fries.

So Reubs is the 4th person in Singapore to finish the burger! Yeah! Guys ans girls, this is what i call "Teamwork".

Decided to dispose the bag of fries at Padang! Videos up soon, when i get it from Suren. Littering Padang with fries is something im super proud of! And i so want to brag about it! Haha. That will be on my list of "Retarded thing i have done". Classic!

After MJ's death, people are like buying his albums and listening to his song! Thats abit crazy, why not do it when he's still alive! So if you want to have a successful music career selling million albums, kill yourself! Album sales will raise exponentially. Guarantee!

"Reasons why Poly sucks", reason number 248499384912: No Youth Day!

Fuck! I want my 8hours of sleep!

2009-06-28T21:46:00.002+08:00

School starts tomorrow, no complains! Hopefully this half of the semester will pass as fast as the last half. Then its holidays! YAY! Anyway these 2 weeks are going to be hell boring! The JC people are all studying and having their CT. So that means no talking to them on msn and going out with them =(

Anyway my holidays are great but hectic. But cause of CT the JC people are having, dont get to go out much. Haiz, once again im regretting going to poly. Infact if only i studied 10000000 times harder.

In the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this cold dark hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of an angel
ma you find some comfort here

2009-06-23T22:38:00.004+08:00

Hockey camp is over! Had lots of fun. And i get to know everyone there better! First day was all the ice breaking games, which are quite fun. Then water bomb which is totally retarded! When all the water bombs are finished Leong went to fill the bucket and pouring it over selected targets. At night was the fun part. Watched Shutter, then they make us do night walk. It was quite scary. At some point i was scared, and im not ashamed to admit that! Went back the Loft to slack, waited for my room mates to come back. But i fell asleep. They woke me up when they came back and we started talking lots of crap. And i was the last one to sleep. Pro huh!

Second day is all hockey. Had training in the morning, i was super stone. Slept like 3hours only. After lunch had a mini tournament. At night had BBQ. Went out, wanted to get ice cream. But in the end due to lack of options, we all bought slurpie instead. Went back to our room, played heart attack! After that went to the common meeting room and played dark room! Super fun. I was scaring people. Covering myself with the blanket and running around haha! But the fucking security guard spoilt the party!

Well i think that sums up the hockey camp. I left out lots of details, man im super lazy and tired. Maybe i'll try to grab the photos on the NP hockey blog. Picture paints a thousand words. Maybe i should just spam my blog with pictures so that i wont have to type!

Oh well holidays are coming to the end. Having training tomorrow. argh! Super lazy to go. Gym today with Mok was tiring. Im getting weaker! Went to Far East to get my haircut. And shit! Rave has closed down, so sad lar! Then went to the salon beside where Rave used to be. The hairdresser was super scary. She's like damn big! Think, Big Momma but shes chinese and much more meaner! But at least my hair looks ok. I want Rave back!!!!!

Once again i have many things i want to blog about, but i forget them. I have awesome memory!

Quote of the day "School is the reason why friendship cannot last". Emo thoughts!

Apparently i cant get the photos from NP hockey multiply site haiz!

Guitar exam 16july! Distinction! Hopefully lar.

2009-06-17T23:16:00.002+08:00

4-3! Yes we won SAJC SC. The build up to the match was kind of sucky. Everyone's telling me that SC is unbeatable and they are strong. SO im abit scared. Plus Mok told me play field soccer, centre back just clear ball. So abit scary. 1st half was abit rush, but everyone was getting use to the field. And well i realise that today was the first time i play field soccer. Cause everyone played at Puggol CC haha! But to the match, 2nd was superb! And we were leading 4-1. Then 3rd half, 2 stupid goals. 1 shouldnt even be counted. But we still win them. No injuries, and i just felt 2 scratches on my butt!

After that went to eat at Al-ameen. Briyani is fucking huge! Then went to slack at Jian's house.

Ate macs for dinner! Argh! No more macs! Dont like it. Then went to watch Aus vs NZ. Simon Child is freaking good! Super gay. My idol! But the NZ lost 2-0.

Slacking at home tomorrow. Suppose to pack my room on tuesday. Im determine to pack it tomorrow. Dont think there's match tomorrow. Then friday i have NP hockey camp.

Time flies super fast, next week is the last week of my holidays. Then school re-opens. Shit must go back see the bengs in my class. FUCK! Thinking about it, i got 3years with them! OK i shall stop blogging now, before i start to curse and swear at them.

2009-06-15T23:05:00.003+08:00

Day one of my holidays, and its all about hockey! In the morning joined SAS training, then played friendly against them. Did fitness with them, to make up for yesterday. Suppose to go for my usual jog and stuff, but in the end i was too lazy and decided to nap. Anyway, i finally went to watch JWC match! Yeah! Aussie vs South Korea, damn nice match! I want to play like the Koreans! Haha. Koreans lost 3-1. So that sums up day 1 of my holiday.

Well hopefully these two weeks will be fun! But the JC needs to study, haiz. Oh yes, tomorrow i'll slack at home! Need to practice my guitar too! And i dont think i can recall all the scales and aperggios. Better go memorise.

ARGH! Come on people talk to me online! Entertain me please.

I finally got FM 08 on the laptop im using now!

"we like brudders from anudder mudder sia" SurenGani

And im addicted to From Autumn to Ashes songs! The screaming is just ARGH! Damn nice and hardcore!

Pioneers - From autumn to ashes

2009-06-12T22:52:00.003+08:00

Yes CTs are finally over. I didnt get owned by ETE ok. Hah sucker! Yesterday my CATS group member taught me superposition theorem, so happy. But there's still many reason why ETE suck. Other than that Maths and Eng Mech should be ok. Hopefully can get full marks.

Suren's drinking tonight. He called me and asked me to go, but i'll be the only non-indian there. But i decided not to go. I need a good rest instead of alcohol.

Now im so craving for my "Me Time", but then i also want company. So contradicting.

Well holidays now! Yipeeee! Time to slack and recharge my batteries, but i dont think i have them. I think i run on solar energy. Oh yes time to pick up guitar, exams are like in one month's time. Distinction!

Going Ameer's birthday bbq tomorrow! FOOD!!! Yummy!

Speaking retardly with neoneo is super retarded! Try pronouncing this "akjdadjhabfksff".

2009-06-09T22:40:00.002+08:00

CT is going very well. Engineering Mathematics aka emaths and amaths, today was easy! And i check through the paper 4times! So proud of myself. ETE seems easy now, but when i do the tutorial cant seem to get the answer. ARGH! Fucking Kirchhoff's law! Anyway no papers tomorrow! Yay!

God im missing Junior World Cup matches cause of my CT! I want to catch the matches! But i cant =(

Heh when can i get to play for Singapore again? Haha maybe never ah.

Oh yes speaking of hockey, im so determined to be stronger and fitter than last year. Im determine to become a better player! But now im abit lazy haha! Ah yes whooping SP asses will spur me on!

Studying with Westlife and BackStreetBoys music sure helps! Haha. Now i cant stop singing BSB songs! Like now, im singing with my brother! Hopefully my mum dont come up and scold us.

Discussing porn with Suren online now, is not one of the things im proud of.

2009-06-06T22:41:00.002+08:00

CT next week! This time i can say im prepared! Accept for ETE, which is fucking screwed. But nevertheless, i will not give up on that module. I feel so proud, usually i'll just give up something i dont understand. But my attitude have changed, or im forced to change. Everything is like counted in my GPA in poly, so cannot play around.

Today suppose to be productive. But in the end after lunch, i watched Ancient Discovery History Channel. After that i really wanted to study ETE, but i was very tired. So i decided to take a short nap, which lasted from 4-8.

Yesterday got back my FAT quiz 1. Got 74, a B! Shit i think i wasnt 100% prepared for it. I promise i'll study harder!

I cant wait for the holidays! There's hockey camp. Then drinking night with Chris, Suren and Reuben. And Suren ask me go clubbing with him.

Oh yes that idiot wants to do blue spray with me. And recently i found out that it kills brain cells. Shit lucky i havent take it yet, and no wonder his brain like that.

Hold on, little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up, little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's Through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on Baby, come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside, I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
Wake up, Who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

To Be With You - Mr Big

2009-05-31T23:46:00.002+08:00

School has been really hectic and busy. Tests after tests, its totally madness! And common tests are like in 2 weeks time. I think im more or less prepared, just need to do more revising. Feel super tired everyday, i want to sleep more! Hopefully i can pig during my break! Sleep and sleep and sleep, thats life! And tomorrow i have a freaking FAT test on freaking 5 chapters! Its like same as the common test already. Thats one of the reasons why education sucks! =)

I can feel my brain is not functioning at all. Feels heavy at night, when im always studying or doing my tutorials. Maybe my brain is calling out to me, asking me to sleep. Like now!

Yesterday had SRC 4 a side tournament. At one point it rained, and i prayed so hard that it will stop. And it did, so the tournament continues. So i didnt woke up at 5.30 just to play one game. Anyway lost to NP C, the stronger team, in the semis. Actually can win them. And the fucking ref screwed up our 2nd round game. If not we top the table, and maybe there will be all NP finals. Fucking ref! Scored 5goals are assists many. And me and Suren(not the VJ one) found out we can team out damn well! Oh yes SP people are also fuckers! Wait POLITE tournament, i'll kick your ass. Anyway in short i had fun!

After that Kevin called me ask me go cage play. So i met him at Kallang MRT and we cab there. Went in 1st minute, i go tackle this damn big and fat guy. I sprained my RIGHT ankle! Last time was my left ankle, now right.

It has been a trend of spraining ankles for me. Every year i at least sprain both my ankles once. Anyone wants to trade ankles with me?

So sleepy now! Goodnight people!

My bed is my bestfriend!

2009-05-23T23:00:00.002+08:00

Firstly i want to say is STEALING IS BAD! NEVER STEAL! On thursday after watching the ADIV finals, went to the 7-11. Due to some bad influence, i was so tempted to steal again. So i took a chocolate bar and walked behind. As i want to put it in my pocket, i hesitated. Then i realise behind me, there's a worker looking at me. So i hurry put it back on the shelf and walk away. So boys and girls, you should never steal!

Haiz, so many tests coming up. And CT is like in 2 weeks time.

My time management skill still kind of suck. Must manage my time better!

After realising ive been neglecting my guitar, suddenly ive become very hardworking. Spend like 30minutes everyday practicing! Oh my exams are also coming soon, 2months i think. Must start to practice on the songs. And re-memorise the scales. Hopefully can pass it!

2009-05-12T22:55:00.003+08:00

Binge drinking and alcoholism is totally different stuff. Binge drinking you drink for a day, and stop. But for alcoholism, you drink and will never stop. IM A BINGE DRINKER, NOT AN ALCOHOLIC. Haha something that i read from a book in Times.

Wanted to upload this video. Taken during my birthday, Suren claims he was drunk already. But his singing is still good! There are many more videos, which are really embarassing, but funny.

School's starting to be stressful. Tests after tests, and projects. And if im not wrong common test is like around the corner.

Today was abit lazy, wanted to finish my ETE tutorial before 5. In the end i watched TV. Ran to East Coast today, i feel so good now! After weeks of procrastination, i finally get to run to East Coast. Hopefully this will continue, and i can do it every Sunday.

Been neglecting my guitar, and exams is like 2 months away. Must start practicing daily! And somemore my teacher keep giving me super hard pieces to play. Maybe i should cut down my time on my laptop so that i can practice. Good time management ok!

I think all of you guys have heard the good news (bad news for Liverpool suckers fan thought), Manchester United have won the EPL! Yes! Was at Fish and Co celebrating Mok's birthday when we saw the TV. I think thats the best birthday present he got! Well to dear Liverpool fans, wait another season. Maybe longer! Haha!

Glory Glory Man United!

2009-05-10T22:19:00.002+08:00

FUCK IT! I have school tommorrow! Thats why poly sucks! Besides that the people in my class can all go die. Its like almost everyone game. I dont even talk to half of the class people. I think im starting to regret. But quoting from wise Mok "Cannot regret, else will do badly". So i shouldnt regret. Good thing time passes super fast in poly. 2hour lecture is really super fast!

Well im sort of feeling the stress. Its like Self test quiz every week for ETE (Electrical Technology & Electronics). Next week have 2 tests. And i know shit about FAT (Fundamentals of Areospace Technology). So it aint slacker than JC. So JC people dont envy me please.

Good thing is i love NP hockey, way better than SAJC.

Anyway our clique can seriously disband. Mok, Jian and Alan, we must go find new friends already. Haiz sad right, no friends leh!

Well no mood to study now.

As usual life sucks!

2009-05-02T14:01:00.002+08:00

Im finally 18, legal to do many stuff. Smoke and drink,just to name a few. And here's a quote from Mok,who called me on my birthday "woah someone 18 already". Well now that im 18 i should be more mature right. I should stop doing childish things right. But NO this aint going to stop! Haha. Well i'll like to thank all who sent me messages. Simple things in life that makes me happy and smile.

So on my birthday school ended at 12, such conincidence right. Well wanted to go home to sleep, cause i woke up at 5.20. But my cousin called me and said i must go to my father's office. And she sort of threatened me. So i have no chioce but to go to my dad's office, and i was "forced" to have KFC for my lunch. Well people,you can see that i have such great parents and cousin. Well anyway they bought a durian cake. After that i went home to sleep.

Woke up, called Woh cause they say they want to have dinner. So met them at PS at 8, but like everyone was late i think. Luckily i met Winsty,else i be freaking lonely. They bought me a cake from Secret Recipe and sang me a birthday song. Everyone was like staring at me. But i had to leave them cause im meeting Chris at Toa Payoh.

This brings us to the highlight of my birthday. DRINKING!! So went to his house and waited for Suren to come after his ICS performance. Reubs didnt come in the end, cause he was tired. So we drank like a bottle of Chivas within an hour, i think. Then we were like getting tipsy and high. Chris let us listen to this prank call thing on youtube. Anyway played guitar, chris beatbox and suren singing. Sign of us getting a little drunk. We crashed at chris neighbour, Leon, house. He happen to be a SAS student. Anyway we were like drunk and high when we got to his house. Well i went to his toilet to puke, think cause i didnt have a proper dinner. So i was sitting in the toilet listening to two of them emo. And suren was like coming in the toilet and giving me high fives haha. But yeah the feeling is damn good. Soon after that Suren was puking in the toilet too. And i think both of us were like dead in the toilet. This is damn funny! I woke up in the middle of the night, Suren was asleep in the toilet, Leon was snoring loudly in the sofa, and i went to his room to sleep.

Woke up next day with a hangover, and it sucks. And Leon's maid cook like a scrumptious spread for breakfast, i ate like a little. Shit. But i dont mind getting high and drunk again. Wasted yesterday lying on my bed with a hangover.

But it was the best birthday i had. Thanks guys!

Now im alone at home, revising my work. See im such a good boy.

Premier game later at 7.30. This is the last week of premier league. Well im gonna miss Chris, Suren and Fauzan. Cause they'll be going to NS next year. And PS say we might not be playing premier cause of the walk over on tuesday.

Well back to studying! =)

Might upload videos and photos, if i get them from Suren

2009-04-26T20:41:00.002+08:00

No more "first week in school" blues. Actually poly is quite like JC, but i think less hectic. But one thing i really hate is the MeL, some online thingy. Every announcement and notes and presentation slides are all up there. And its freaking slow. Troublesome.Getting around the school is also a pain in the ass. Good thing is that every block has lift. School food rocks! Subway and Waffletown in campus.

Modules are abit erm difficult cause its all new stuff.

So get to know my classmates, but until now i still dont know some people names.

Premier game today was great. But injured the same ankle again. Loss my temper,but i think when i lose my temper i'll play better.

So tired now.

2009-04-18T22:46:00.002+08:00

Im super tired now. Premier game just now was really like crap. The sun is just freaking hot! 10minutes on the pitch can kill me already. I hate playing under the hot sun. I cant run and cannot really concentrate cause of the freaking heat. So yup today i played like crap. I think its time to retire from hockey.

School's starting next week. But i dont seem excited about it. I dont feel like studying anymore. I really wonder if going to poly was the right choice for me. But i also dont think JC was right for me. Maybe thats what i think cause i failed. Well if i still screw up then i think i can really go die. Hopefully things turns out well.

2 more days to school and i dont know my class. And if i didnt got to MeL, i'll be freaking screwed cause i wont know what notes and textbook to buy. Poly kind of sucks already. Lets see how this week goes.

Feeling fucked up and piss off isnt a good combination. Maybe im just tired.

whats ahead of me is very unclear

2009-04-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

Feel out of place. Damn i think i screw myself up again.

2009-04-01T21:23:00.002+08:00

Well today i was freaking bored at home, so i decided to read my archives. God i miss those sec4 days. There are only two things i always blog about. Soccer with the class and OFM. Haha, i cant believe im so retarded to blog about OFM lar. But yeah i miss soccer with the class. We always play at the field beside the Indian Temple after chem remedial on Saturdays. What a great way for the class to bond, about half the class will play. People lar Joel, Alvin, Keith, Isaac all play! Its super fun. And from my archives, Jian's team always lose hahaha.

I also realise i like to suan Qin Hong on my blog. Shit i dont have any photos of him,else i post it here for everyone's viewing and suaning pleasure.

And there's this particular month which is the DSA period. Haha, its so funny now when i read it. I used to rant about RJ approaching me and stuff. But now i look back, i was so stupid lar haha. But in the end both my DSA got rejected. RJ only accepted one, which happens to be reuben. And VJ didnt want to take in hockey boys. Always wanted to go VJ. I was so excited when VJ captain called me. But in the end i ended up in SAJC, the school i dont want to go. So dumb. But look where i am now, fucking sad!

I want to go back to my carefree days of sec4! Besides the soccer, i'll always miss 4SA! What a great class, with outcasts to tease, with nerds to laugh at. Sadly i dont have any photos to capture the wonderful moments of sec4 days. And i think i lost all my grad night photos! Fuck.

2009-03-29T22:20:00.003+08:00

Today's game against SRC was not that bad. Lost i think 7-2. Quite an improvement,last year we got thrashed like 10-0 with all our national players available. Today we held them to a 2-2 draw in the 1st half. But 2nd half they got lots of shot corners and onviously,being the gay SRC they converted. Well the worst part of the game is that i sprain my ankle. I was standing waiting for the ball and my ankle just gave way. So im out for next week's game.

Well finally i got a facebook account. Yes i know im abit slow. I even got my brother to teach me how to use. And after 10minutes of using facebook. I conclude that its freaking troublesome. But the quiz is quite fun lar. But its spamming my email. Just like friendster,irritating

Oh yes i need to cut my hair. The fringe is almost killing me,every minute on the pitch my must brush it aside. And i think its affecting my game.

And im singing Westlife songs now! Please sing a long with me

2009-03-22T22:27:00.003+08:00

What greeted me this morning wasnt the delicious, mouth-watering breakfast. But the front cover of Straits Times, Man u lost to Fulham. FUCK FUCK FUCK!! Somemore Scholes and Rooney got red carded. What the fuck is happening, nononono!!!

Cant wait for school to start, im rotting at home. Actually i kind of like my life now. I spent most of my weekends napping,while my fellow JC friends are all mugging. Well when my term starts, thats when i'll be busy. My blog posts are getting shorter and shorter, guess my life is really too boring.

Premier games are like postponed for dont know how many million years, cant wait to go back on the pitch to get trash again. Im thinking of changing sport, kind of sick of hockey. Handball maybe, soccer most likely not.

Cage was great! Love cage sessions, this time i dont have any cramps and i didnt stud myself! Next cage, june holidays.

When life gets boring...

2009-03-18T22:23:00.003+08:00

Time passes by freaking fast. Waking up in the morning seems like seconds ago. Looking back, i realise i didnt really made good use of my super long holiday. Not studying seem to take a toll on me. I think im becoming dumber, thats why im relying on dictionary.com for spelling. I know its pathetic. Ive been very good at lazing around. I can spend hours doing that.

watch-movies.net have been closed down. Shit now i dont know where to watch movies. Downloading is too long. And everyone seems busy to watch movie with me. Haiz. I want term to start, so that i have something to do.

Well i ran today, for like 45minutes! Yesterday friendly against Vj didnt went as well as i think it would. I was super lethargic, before the game even started. The rest is history.

Been practicing my guitar a lot now. Now i cant stop playing classical songs, i love waltz!!

Cage on friday yay! Hopefully i wont have any cramps, and pray hard i wont stud myself and leave a scar.

2009-03-15T21:59:00.002+08:00

4-1. Fuck! Watch man utd got humiliated at Old Trafford by liverpool, with jian,dog and pig. Vidic is like a clown, trying to pay around with Torres. In the he got owned. Bloody fool. And what the fuck Fergie is doing, make substitutions only at 70something minutes, take out Park Ji-Sung somemore. Well we're still fighting for 3 more trophies. EPL, still have one game in hand.

Watching soccer with Jian rocks. Scold so much vulgarities. And Carragher cut slope!!!

Premier games have been postponed again. And next week dont have games. So its like one whole month dont have games. Need to train harder! Good thing is my dragflick is getting better and consistent. Now need to aim the top net.

Poly admin stuff is so troublesome! Medical checkups, pay fees, buy laptop, install software, and many many many many stuff. Now i dont feel like studying already. 1 month and 5 more days to new semester. Not really excited now,haiz.

Find me a rich wife to marry.

2009-03-07T23:03:00.004+08:00

HOCKEY HOCKEY HOCKEY. This whole week its all about hockey. But i really enjoy SAS training, mix and skills and physical training. Not like fucking SAJC, their training is like what all fucking physical. Think training for Olympics track team huh. Anyway my drag flick is improving, and my finishing touch is getting better. Yes ah! Im can feel my confidence is coming back.

Went to SAJC on friday to collect my chinese A level results. But i wasted my fucking time. Firstly go there to collect something i dont even care about. Secondly, the teacher dont even have my results slip. Fuck you, now i cant get to see how badly ive done for my chinese.

Well everyone seems fine in SA. But i have to admit, SAJC got this "sian aura" that keeps me away from it. So sorry to those people who always ask me to crash SA. I just dont feel like walking into that place anymore. Sometimes i really wonder how life will be if i wasnt in SAJC. Maybe its a good thing, maybe its bad.

Today is like one of boring saturdays i ever have. I dont like boring saturdays man! Played hockey with aloy and 3 cdiv guys. After that i met Jian for dinner, cause either they are studying for BT or they have their own dinner. So me and loser nut had dinner at macpherson, eat until super full, but shiok. After that follow my parents to T3 to watch them have their dinner.

See today is freaking boring! More exciting saturday nights!! Lets get drunk on every saturday, get fucking high and stuff.

Got a new maid, it feels so weird having a new maid. The previous one i think is good, but its just that she does stuff slowly. But actually im not complaining, shes good! Now this one lets see, shes scared of my dog. And i cant stand it, she always speak to me in Indonesian, even though im speaking to her in english. Can die!

Im going crazy, now im into poems. Not the happy ones, about butterflies and flowers. But sad ones, depressing ones. I love them! Here's one for you guys to enjoy, its called "And yet I die"

I see the stars sparkling so bright,
Within the moon kissed sky.
I hear the lark so sweetly sing,
Amidst the morning dawn.
I smell the flower full in bloom,
And see their royal pomp.

And yet some place so deep within,
I'm shrouded and I'm closed.
The brilliance there I can't see,
In mists of misery.
Enshrined inside,
unable thus,
To touch the warmth without.

I gaze upon this passion spent,
And yet . . . Inside I die.

And im not emo.

2009-03-01T23:14:00.003+08:00

Looking a few months back, i was a really emo boy. Sad about life and feel like dying, which im am dead serious. But now im a lazy boy, but im happy. I have no idea why. But i think failures make us stronger, and make us better person. I love failures!

Well this week was infact fun, especially the weekend. Went out with Reubs to get his turf shoe. Then saw his prefect jr who went to ACJC. Nice one boy, not going to SAJC was a fucking good chioce. Well speaking about SAJC, i was randomly browsing videos on youtube, and i saw this fucker that insulted SAS. So i went to click on his profile, but that lucky bastard had his account closed. He was making some comment and compare my school to SJI. So i assumed he's from SJI. But fuck him! I'll fucking shove test tubes and whatever i can find down his asshole.

Anyway, after that had self training. Was pretty good, got back a little touch. And we tried out some new skills, nice!

On Saturday had soccer, since i dont have premier games this week. Played abit at the street soccer court, then it started to rain. So went to KFC to slack abit. Our professional gamblers Alan and Jian was busy analysing soccer matches. After awhile, it starts to drizzle. So we head to SAS field. Played soccer match with the SAJS soccer boys, together with their coaches. Its super fun! Me, Mok and my Bro against Jian and Ah Beng. The small kids are like damn cute haha, and i dont recognise half of my team for like almost the whole game. Halfway through the game, i heard someone shouted my name. So i turn around and i saw bestfriend, Yiwei. She was apparantly walking into the field, while we'll still playing. Funny, so typical of bestfriend. Anyway her brother was actually one of the cute little boys in my team.

After that went to buy ramly burger for dinner. Went to some void deck to eat. After that went to Macs to play some game. The number and thumb game. Dont know what its called lar. And the forfeit the loser must do is a dare. 1)go to the counter to ask for 6cups of water 2)go order popcorn chicken at the macs counter 3)go tell the ramly burger stall uncle that his ramly is nice 4)go order mac chicken at KFC 5)go to the CC office to book a tennis court. Everyone kenna, except me and Ah Beng.

Nowadays im like listening to softer music. I was seraching for BackStreetBoys and Westlife songs. Shit! I need to go back listening to METAL!! Well maybe giving my ears a break is good.

Oh yes i have no idea how to differ from NS again. Mok says different poly have different methods. Fuck i dont want to be doing my semester exams when police come in the LT to catch me. I might look like a hero ofcourse. BUT I DONT WANT!! Fuck im screwed, for now

dictionary.com is a freaking good website, for people who cant spell for nuts like me.

"Everday" batteries fucking sucks. It cant last for nuts, even my nuts can last hell longer!

take me on a joyride!

2009-02-23T22:08:00.003+08:00

Premier league is sort of going fine, i think we'll get better as we start to gel together. Though we played 2 lost 2, but i had the sense of satifaction after every game. Yes there is room for improvement, and im so glad that i know theres still stuff i need to learn and brush up on. Infact im looking forward to our next match, just to see if im improving. Im going to train with reubs on wednesday and thursday. Getting back our match fitness and our touch. Getting back my love for hockey and i found joy in it.

Read reader's Digest just now. Saw this article that says fast eaters grow fat. Haha, im a slow eater =)

People seem to get emo nowadays. Must be life being a J2. Maybe im glad im not in JC anymore. Im not running away, im just taking another path. And i got this shit feeling im not going to be an aerospace engineer when i grow up.

2009-02-17T22:38:00.002+08:00

Today is damn sucky, and it drained me mentally and physically. Received my NP letter, but im too lazy and tired to read now.

Im starting to understand things im confused about in the past, i think.

And i found out the fastest way to get tipsy! And i've tried it, together with 2 lonely hearts member. Come people, pay me $10 (student discount) for crash course.

Premier games are finally starting. But this week sucks to the max! Friday vs SG under21. Saturday vs Jansenites. Sunday vs Police. Can die!

And i pwned Jian in viwawa, 4wins in a row leh boy!

Here's a song to end a day, love this song!

2009-02-12T22:54:00.002+08:00

Im getting seriously retarded. After typing out 3 paragraphs of post, i decided to delete them all. Some things are better left unsaid.

Had training today, im super rusty. Dribbling sucks, shooting ok, stoping sucks. Haiz. One more week to brush up my skills, this week dont have game. Argh im tired of waiting. PS got more than enough players to replace our 2 players who went to Under21 squad. Damn, more competition, but his still using the 10 minutes rolling sub policy.

"Whistle!" is a must watch anime. It freaking inspired me to train even harder, despite me feeling that my progression in hockey has already stopped. It has not! But then i have the feeling of retiring. Seriously, as i continue to play hockey it brings me both physical and mental pain. Im getting injured, and the injury take million of years to heal. And 8 years of playing hockey, never have i played in a school tournament finals before. Bdiv won last year, with only 3 of us graduating. From the 3, only darryl chow had played in finals, which they won. So that leaves me and Reuben on the same boat. Adiv is fucked up for me. I shall not say things in detail, but zoom in to the unfortunate event. I got a fucking green card for no reason. The guy just banged into me, if i know i'll get a card, i'll just heck his legs or something. But then its all over, and i guess or infact i know for sure i'll never win gold. Im dead serious.

when that look still in your eyes

2009-02-08T14:52:00.003+08:00

Let me tell you guys something, playing in street soccer court aint always fun. For no fucking good reason, the opponent got pissed. Then there's this old man that keep disrupting the game cause the people we always play with, parked their bikes under the void deck. And it pisses the guys off. Well its partly their fault too, they know they cant park their bikes at the void deck. Plus its dangerous, according to Alan, the exhaust pipe will still be hot. Maybe the old man was right afterall. Our first casualty is Pig. The muay thai guy was wrong, but i think i know how he feels cause i been that, done that before. Will not really the swinging part. Second is Ting, it was cause by the most unexpected but expected guy, Nitesh. I think because he wanted to win badly, thats why he pushed Ting away. But fuck, its just a game, lose then lose lar. These things really piss people off, but we cant do anything. If im filthy rich, i'll build a cage at my house so all these shit wont happen.

After soccer, we went to Fish&Co. I suggested it cause i was craving for it. Had New York's, super nice! Saw Joshua again at Fish&Co, and he was AGAIN celebrating his friend's birthday. After that, we played the game that they played last week. Who reach the bottom of the step last will get whack. It was a race between Jon and Mok, to see who gets whack. But in the end its Mok. But the fun doesnt stop there, we get to pole Jon again. This time to the steps railing. Love the poling session, i think our poling skills have improve loads since 2 years ago.

Premier league matches are postponed. So getting owned will be postponed to next week. So have one more week to brush up my skills??? And ofcourse fitness, but i know for sure my match fitness will suck. Oh yes i got my shoulder guard, a.k.a the half bra.

Lets just hope my shoulder socket wont pop out. And please let my ligament heal COMPLETELY. I still can feel a little pain.

And i want my damn Fender HSS strat! Argh i hate waiting for so long to get my electric guitar.

Oh yes my dad had gladly accepted to enroll me into some enigneering drawing shit. It was offered to my dad for free. And he decided to send me. At first i said 'NO', but with his constant naggin and fuck. I have no choice but to agree and go. Just imagine four days of total loneliness. Spending your time with people twice your age. And its from like 9-5pm. But the good thing is that my dad's paying me. THATS THE ONLY GOOD THING. Actually i still can get paid by working for him. Oh god, what have i gotten myself into.

2009-02-02T16:11:00.002+08:00

Premier's opening match, against Singapore Under-21 which is on saturday. On sunday is our second match, against SRC, which is like the best team fucking gay shit. I seriously think this is damn screw up. Whats worst its back to back! My legs are gonna hurt, my ass gonna hurt and my poor back! Times have changed, im getting old. But im quite optimistic about this year's premier league. Well, i've missed out a lot last year, i didnt play much. Hopefully this year i'll gain loads of experience and become a better player. The player im suppose to be. Somewhat i know where im lacking, match confidence. It always screw around with me, knowing that i can play better.

Well im counting down the days to my poly admission. One side of me is excited about the new prospect, and new opportunities. School of Engineering is going to be great i guess. Its gonna be sort of like boy's school. Finally im studying something that im interested in. No more mother-fucking maths, no more cibai chemistry, no more!

But then, another side of me is pessimistic. I guess its because im getting lazier.

I think producing music is damn cool. Its like putting together bits of puzzle together to form a picture. And imagine working with your favourite band or singer.

School Rumble is a freaking retarded anime! Why the hell did i watch it and im still going back to watch it. Waiting for new Bleach episodes to come out sucks!

Damn! I always have writers' block. I keep forgetting what to write. I think my brain is not functioning at optimum level. Need to oil it, maybe send it for repair.

Im starting to bore myself with this post...

2009-01-29T11:59:00.004+08:00

Chinese New Year! My brother favourite festival, cause he can collect ang bao. Anyway, i think this year sucks! CNY just have to fall nicely on Monday and Tuesday. Its such a rush, didnt even visit my grand aunts and other relatives. Whats worst, i fall sick before CNY. And as i thought i recover, on CNY itself i had stomach ache. FUCK! All the yummy yummy food! Urgh, and my shit is freaking black/ greyish.

I sort of miss school. Not the sitting in lectures, not understanding a single shit. Or failing whatever test i take. But i miss friends around me, and fooling around in class. Maybe giving teachers hell. I feel quite isolated now, its beginning to turn me into an anti-social. All i can talk to is this four walls. Maybe my pillow and bolster. I cant wait for term to start, but then im too lazy to go to school anymore.

I have not use my brain for God knows how many months. And i think its dead. Ive been a very very good boy for not touching alcohol too! Actually its hard to drink when you share a room with your brother. Anyway alcohol is expensive too!

Beep test tomorrow, damn hopefully can pass. Have not exercise for like 2 weeks, muscles are weak. And im physically dead. Maybe next week i shall start running and stuff. Get myself to shape for Premier League. Speaking of hockey, i think im starting to get tired of it. Usually after a long layoff, i'll be eager to get back. But now im not even eager to pick up my stick and fly to CCAB. I think im going nowhere with it. Maybe its time to hang up my stick and retire. Im getting old anyway. And my shoulder socket is loose, it was out of place. Thats why my arm didnt recover.

Life's getting boring anyway...
Everyone seems so busy. Maybe they should be.

I'm always wishing,
I'm always wishing too late
For things to go my way
It always ends up the same

2009-01-19T00:25:00.003+08:00

I'm half handicap now. My arm freaking hurts! Taking one for the team, persuaded by PS to come for today's game. And now im suffering the consequences, now even have problem lifting up my arm. Shitty arm!

Today had the most wonderful dream. Please let it be a deja vu, it was the happiest period of my life.

But now i'll be glad if some kind soul donate his/her right arm to me!

bleeding hearts shed no tears

2009-01-17T23:26:00.003+08:00

Johnny Walker is nice! There goes my streak of not touching alcohol. And its just a freaking small cup.

Soccer was like the usual. New shoes! But my shooting sucks hahaha. Hit the fucking post how many times. Then after that played against Germayne's brother. Well like brother, like brother. Both of them have the same face, the "whack-me-please" face. Both talk a lot. But hey, i kicked the ball to his chest, pushed him down. All by accident ofcourse.

Nic injured my feet. I think my metatarsal is fractured.

Today dinner is budget! Opposite Indian Temple (or Indian Temter by jian). After went to the spider web.

The spider web has two uses. 1) climb 2) pole jon. And it has become a weekly tradition to pole jon, or just rape him. But we should'nt pole him so much, else he cant have shot gun.

Today i finally bought magarita by MYSELF! I was denied by the bitch on wednesday. She said that only 19 can buy. But today its another lady, and she didnt even check my IC. Heh! Now i know when to get alcohol.

2009-01-11T22:54:00.002+08:00

Yesterday sucks! An hour of soccer and some idiots came to lock up the street soccer court. "We're following orders from the town council". And whats worse, we didnt even have team to play against. All we do is to play tennis, everyone against Alan. Balls! How can they lock the street soccer court up? Have they thought of people like US? Our dreams will be dashed, and we cant nurture our talent.

Anyway, went to town with Alan, Dog and Mok. Alan bought his CD, Dog got his cute haircut. Went to the basement of Heeren. Played with paper boats. And i freaking spoiled one of the lanterns. And i didnt know there's a camera!

Fish and Co for dinner. Swordfish with Mok. I didnt use my hands! After that poled Jon, failed to pole Cheney. Then watched Jon get rape.

Went home around 10 plus

2009-01-06T22:40:00.002+08:00

I've just received a SA alumni letter, and this really inspired me. It changes my perspective of life

"I hope you remember what i wrote to you last year. I reminded you that every one of you was made for success - that is what God intended. He has never created a failure. I trust that belief has brought you through some good learning experiences in the past year. I pray for each of you that your journey will be a fruitful one of finding your true self." Mrs Belinda Charles.

Though im not a Christain or anything. But it gave me a glimpse of hope. Though i may not know what lies ahead. But im sure no matter what, if i give my best something will happen. The results may seem bad, but maybe its a blessing in disguise.

Im optimistic now, and im a happy boy!

2009-01-03T23:25:00.003+08:00

Another year gone, here comes another one. Time has pass faster and faster. I think its a sign from above, that my time on Earth is coming to the end. Anyways, last year was really shit and fuck. Hopefully this year will be way different. I will want to fucking forget about those fucked-up memories. But sadly, i will have to learn from my mistakes. Starting afresh! 2009 will always be different, just like every year. Im fucking 18! Soon... God its the age where i can make my own miracles! Drink Drink Drink Drink Drink! Im going to be in heaven. Maybe i should even build some compartment under my bed to store alcohol. And yeah i can learn how to drive. But after years sitting in my parents' car and my mum driving. It scared the balls out of me. And surprisingly no accidents yet, touch wood! So im kind of afraid to drive, but my dad assured me its going to alright. I always wanted to learn how to drive a motocycle, it sort of runs in my family. But then my mum doesnt allow. And my smart dad told me that i can learn it secretly. Whats the point?

I guess 2009 is a door to new opportunities. Gosh im so optimistic here! Well treasure every second of my damn life, if im really going to die soon. Well hello to poly too! I think im starting to lose interest in hockey? Or maybe its the long lay-off. My arm still hurts, Mr Denis told me it'll take about 3months. There goes Under21 tournament? Doubtful for premier league. Well im really that sad. Maybe the prospect of drinking every night makes me happy. "Professional Drinker" sounds good to me.

Missed countdown thingy with my friends, cause im was on the freaking cruise. Well cant complain much, must be grateful? Well went with parents, aunties and uncles. Hell it was boring, the only person around my age was my brother. Time passed quite fast. Went drinking in the bar, lets just say the cocktail is really cock. Let me show them how to mix! Hahaha. Dancing on the last day was abit erm ok. Uncle pangsei-ed me, and the rain spoil everything! Wanted to try to get high, but with parents around not a good idea.

I love travelling, sometimes i dream that i can travel around the world alone.

Some people have new year resolution and all that shit. But why? Setting goals and targets will just make you disappointed in the end. And at the end of the year, you all are going to look back and regret, "oh i should have done this done that". Aint going to happen to me! Going to live my life day by day. Dreams are meant to be dashed, goals are not meant to achieved and you'll never hit the bulls eye on the target. Call me a wet blanket for all i care. I think people like qin hong will kill me after reading this. Its just me!

So wait up, I'm not sleeping alone again tonight
There's so much to dream about
There must be more to my life
So wait up I'm not sleeping alone again tonight
Between the light and shallow waves is where I'm going to die

2008-12-23T22:44:00.002+08:00

Holidays are still quite boring, working for my papa. But recently have outings and stuff, so yeah, it brightened up my god damn holidays. Whats worse, i have to bear with it for another 2-3 months. Not promoting is starting to haunt me. Shit if i have just fucking gone to poly, or if im born one year later (but of course i cant control this). Maybe i really regretted things, but one thing i didnt regret is getting to know the people of 08S25. They are the reason why i come to school everyday (almost), they are the only reason why i like SAJC, other than that fuck SAJC. Anyway, next year will be real different. New people in poly and stuff, im not looking forward to it. I'll rather stop time right now! And be with them, and ofcourse 4SA people, plus alan. Soon they will all go to NS, and i'll be left alone with Mok. Seriously i cant possibly look forward to what seems like a miserable future. Thats why i want to freaking die at 18. Its the right age to die. I have nothing much to achieve, no ambitions and stuff. And look on the bright side, i dont have to go through much suffering. No need to think about money, and i wont have to go through illnesses. Die when you're most happy!

They say the captain
Goes down with the ship
So, when the world ends
Will God go down with it?

2008-12-07T22:26:00.003+08:00

Troubled by many things now. If only im not the type who thinks a lot.
75% sure im not going to play under20
=(
these are my laments...

Need alcohol now!

2008-12-03T22:28:00.002+08:00

Im back from Penang!!! The trip was well fun. Though we didnt qualify for the knock-out stages, but i've gain lots of experience. This trip is not like the others, did many things that i never in my life did before or seen. I FINALLY GET TO SMOKE! OK out of my curiousity, i wanted to know why people, such as my brother likes to smoke. So i tried a stick, it wasnt pleasant. Instead of smoking it, the smoke from the tip went in my nose. That feeling is horrible. Furthermore, my room is connected to my bro's. And what the fuck, he's room is like use for smoking. Imagine how much second hand smoke i take in.

During the trip, i drank EVERYDAY! Especially the last two nights, me and Christian shared a bottle of vodka. After that still go to Ameer's room to play drinking games and continue to drink. Mixing them and taking shots!! Thats life!!!

At the last night there, there some initiation for the sec2s. Well i shall leave out the details, cause is freaking sick.

Once i came back from Penang, Kevin asked me to go for the class chalet. So i to please him i have to go, knowing that i only had an hour of sleep the other night. Hope you're guilty Kevin! Went there and stoned, then went home in the morning to sleep. After that went for guitar lessons, and asked my dad to buy alcohol for me to bring to the class chalet. Once again, mixing drinks for them. Nelia and me took loads of shots. But yeah didnt get drunk AGAIN!! Maybe my ability to drink is a curse. Turning into an alcoholic =(

Went home and sleep.

Finally things to brighten up my holidays. FUCKING BORING!!!

My right arm is not better, maybe if i didnt play it'll recover by now.

Drinking in Singapore is fucking expensive!

2008-11-23T22:38:00.002+08:00

Lesson 1
If Saturday dont get to play soccer, play on Sunday
Lesson 2
But then have to wake up at 9 in the morning, which sucks because i usually sleep until afternoon on Sundays.
Lesson 3
No one play soccer on Sundays, the court is freaking empty. So played soccer tennis and stuff.
Lesson 4
People go to a great extent just to get free ice-cream and free drinks. Its a dog eat dog world out there people!!

Dog's erm dislocated toe? looks disgusting. But somehow it looks like a sperm to me. Anyhow, get well soon Doggy!! I guess its shoes for your birthday next year!

Going to find job with Mok again, he's getting desperate!

Holidays are still as boring as ever, but then i dont want school to start. What am i going to do with my life now?

Im just a happy-go-lucky person?

whose scars are bigger than these doubts of mine

2008-11-16T22:52:00.002+08:00

I totally agree with BFFL, when we are in school we hope that holidays will come quickly. But when holidays are here, we pray that we are all back in school having fun. This sucks!! Whats worse, i cant play hockey for like 2-3 weeks. Cause i pulled my right arm ligament. If i had when to see the doctor earlier..... Damn i thought it was only a muscle pull, who knows i've damaged my ligament. So yup im going to rot and die. Now im like temporary handicap, i really cant do much, as in play.

Talking about school, all i want to say is BYE BYE SAJC!!! Thanks for making this year a living hell for me. And because of you, i fucking hate school. Thanks a lot!

Happy because im leaving SAJC for good. Why i hate it so much? And yes im never going to play hockey for them. This is something that i can rejoyce on. Oh happy days to come?

Sad because im going to leave my class. Great people! Someone told me that its hard to have close friends in JC, cause of the very short 1year plus. And people there are like always mugging? But then i've made great friends. Close friends i can say. People i can relate to, people i can talk to. There's a list of them, but im not going to mention it. Whats poly going to be like? What if i dont get into the course of my chioce, is that the end for me?

Decisions decisions, hopefully i make the right one. Dont want to have another shitty year, do I? Damn i always have this "Im so screwed" feeling. Why this year is so miserable for me? Is it me who make it miserable?

Ive been constantly questioning myself, but then i dont really have an answer for every question. Whats my purpose in life? I actually dont quite really know. Make others happy? Make myself happy? Things i do, is it just to please others? Confusing eh.

What i want to do now is just go somewhere far far away from everyone. Just to be alone..... Maybe one day i'll find my purpose in life, and have an answer for every question.

i wont see you tonight

2008-11-11T23:04:00.002+08:00

After reading BFFL's blog and from my experiences this year, im inspired to blog about FRIENDS. I think its one of the most important things in life. I cant possibly imagine someone without a friend. Even that weird guy in the class or that bully who screw your kindergarten life up, they all have at least a friend, a true friend.

Different people have their own definations of friends. Well they can be people you just say "Hi" and "Bye", to people who cares for you, people who are there for you no matter what. But whats most important is that you have a friend. I cant really imagine that i dont have a single friend. Then who can i talk to? Who will help me when im in trouble? Who will listen to me? Who will encourage me? I'll be lonely.

Hey thanks for being such great friends!! Here's a song for you guys.

I LOVE YOU ALL!

2008-11-09T22:19:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i wish that time passes slowly, but then sometimes i wish that time passes quickly. Such contridicting statement. Yes when we are all having fun, we pray that time passes slowly. But times like studying for exams, or sitting in lectures, we all pray that time passes quickly.

Went for SAS hockey training. Do a lot of match fitness drills, though it doesnt look tiring, but it is. Oh yes Lumpy finally after years of hibernation, came back to hockey. He claims that he needs to lose weight. Haha. But yeah he still have his skills. Im supposed to run with him every training to help him lose weight. Under-20 tournament is coming up. Hopefully i can make it to the training team. Its a 9-a-side tournament, but we are used to it. Always playing without a full squad. Penang Sixes also coming, but then we are suppose to train at IA to get use to grass pitch. But sadly the freaking rain just have to spoil PS plans. Then again, im glad we dont have to train at IA, cause i have to wash my boots after training.

PW is almost over, still have to submit the GPF. OP is kind of crap, my speech reached a record timing of 2min 30sec. And it was my normal speed. God im talented. Q&A was kind of screw up too. Our questions are like "what the hell", and kind of forget what's my question. Oh well its over.

Saturday is now officially my "soccer day". Always playing with the same old group of adults. I think they are nice, and fun to play with. Using tricks will not get pass them. Some of them are like the size of rhinos and elephants, its impossible to get pass them.

Yesterday after soccer we went to PS. Actually wanted to go to the food court, but its freaking crowded. And super smart me suggested cafe cartel. Its quite expensive! I thought i was loaded, but after that dinner, im freaking broke! Went up to the last level to check out a shop that sell many swords and stuff. Alan show us the swords of Bleach characters. Damn i want to have one too, but then its freaking expensive. I rather use the money to buy my long-awaited guitar.

I want to be a shinigami =)

Well Mok wants to find a job. But then lazy me wants to play for like 6months. Haha. Oh i promised him that we'll find a job. And he freaking wants to work at New Urban Male. NONOO, the workers there are gay!! Go Ben's and Jerry's or some food place to work! Do they give their workers free ice cream???

My Creative mp3 used to have like 6 hours of playback time. But now it only have like 15minutes of playback time. Freaking screw up. Now i want an ipod too, am i too demanding?? Haha. But then guitar is still my top priority. I few like getting a Fender now. As is, its versatile and can play many differrent genres. But its freaking expensive. Nevermind i'll find a way to persuade my dad to buy me one.

screw man u!! Let me take over Ferguson!!

2008-11-05T22:41:00.002+08:00

This video is hilarious!! Human Tetris!! The Japs are freaking creative, who the hell can think of such games. I want to try it too! Haha.

Well i still havent do my OP yet, ruying is still sick, so we have to do it on Friday. And luckily we dont have to go school tomorrow to play audience. Get well soon ruying! Im lazy to do a proper I&R too!

Went to train with SAS today. I need to exercise!! Saturday soccer session is not enough. PS asked me to join the Bdiv in their gym training. ARGH damn i thought i wont have anymore gym trainings. But then its confirm more fun than SAJC training. Oh and PS asked me to play hockey for like months while waiting for my poly. He wants me to be a professional player eh!

PS is like the best coach ever! Where can you find a coach that really cares about your well-being. He goes to the street soccer court regularly to make sure we dont mix with wrong company and stuff. After training we'll have a good chit chat with him.

I want to go backpack!!!! Anyone wants to backpack with me???

2008-11-02T21:42:00.002+08:00

Oh my!!! Every micrometres of my leg hurts like crap. 3 hours of training, which i hate like shit, and after that 2 hour plus of soccer. Played against some adults. Win some, lose some. Scored like almost all the goals with my weaker left foot. But damn made some mistakes, but hey i made up for it by scoring. But yeah i had fun like always. I think i prefer playing with adults, though yeah some are real fat and its impossible to get pass. But at least they are not as scary as those 'gangsters'.

After soccer, stoned at macs again. Went to 7-11 to buy a bottle of Long Island Tea. Dont think its nice, taste abit like cough syrup, but then again its alcohol, so yeah its nice! Haha. But yeah i will never drink Long Island Tea ever again. Newton Circus for dinner, ice kachang was damn nice. And lucky me, my mummy came to fetch me home. Else i have to endure the torture of taking the train. I think my legs will break even before i reach home. Plus i get to sleep in my parents' car.

In life we have to make decision. Some can be as simple as choosing what to eat, but some are just confusing. Sometimes im just afraid to make a decision as you are afraid of the consequences. But yes there are times when I make chioces without even thinking about the consequences. Yes thats life, i guess we all have to live with our chioces, and deal with the consequences, if theres any.

PW is the only on my mind now. OK im lying, my brain has officially stopped functioning. I cant think anymore, i cant memorise and my mind is just blank. OP is on tuesday, im quite excited haha. Ive mastered the art of "Speaking with a smile". I&R is crap, i just anyhow do.

escape from this afterlife

2008-10-30T23:07:00.003+08:00

Chinese Alevels is finally over. Like i really mug chinese for this whole year. I do not have any comments for the paper, but i was pissed when my back starts to hurt when i want to sleep. Wasted brandon was sitting infornt of me, if he was sitting behind me then he can massage me. Well i finally got to tear my first ever exam paper! Clap clap clap. Well i didnt stand on the chair, hahaha. Everyone stood up at the same time, so well heck it. No more chinese!! Hmm why i hate chinese so much? Haha. I mean i loved the subject, until this year. Oh well lets all blame the school!

After that we all went to Just Acia for lunch. Well im sort of tired of the place already. But well since its almost the whole class is going so just follow them. But i was so happy because theres like vanila and chocolate ice cream!

Oh yes im officially broke, and i spent all on food. I cant freaking believe it. Oh well at least im happy. Haha. After eating so much, i think i growing fat, like Loco Roco. Nevermind soccer on saturday!! Lets hope i dont get cramps after training on Saturday.

I still got PW, which is like a pain in the ass. Im like at holiday mode already, but still have to do it. And i completely forget about I&R, fuck it lar. Haha. OP is like next tuesday, and im memorising my script. And still have Q&A after the presentation. Damn!

Am i going to be happier? I dont want to be sad anymore, but its hard. I think i'll just take my time.

the rock show!

2008-10-26T20:22:00.002+08:00

Gosh im so confused and troubled over stuff! I really dont know what to do now. Im feeling screw up, sad, angry and all the shit feeling. I got all sort of shit troubling me now, i just cant figure how to solve them all. This year has been really shit! From disappointing Olevel results to retaining. I dont really can remember any "Nice memory", all i can think of is all my grieve and sorrow. Well im not emo but im just reflecting, reflecting on how this year went. I so want this year to end as soon as possible. All these shit is killing me. In one of my earlier post, i hoped that this year will end in a high note. But i guess it wont.

I just want to die now. I figure out that maybe dying is the only way to escape from this shit forever. And i wont have to face anything forever too. Drinking dont solve my problems. But i still do it whenever i feel down. It just numbs my feeling and i kind of like it. Sometimes i wish i can talk to someone, but i just cant say everything out. Maybe its my nature to keep everything inside me. I may look perfectly fine outside, but inside its a different story.

Well its still early to make any New Year resolutions, but here's two
1) Die young, preferably by 18
2) Since im hoping to die young, im going to enjoy every second of my life

This is not an "emo" post! And im not feeling "emo" right now

2008-10-22T23:05:00.002+08:00

LADDIES AND GENTLEMEN!!
Let me introduce to you guys this act cute girl, she is my jiejie, Ong Ying Ying. I have no idea why am i blogging about her, oh oh yes cause then she must blog a damn long post about me. Well i think by now, most of you will think this is going to be a very very very boring post, and will not hesitate to click on the "Close" button. Yes indeed this is going to be a very boring post, but i assure you guys im going to make it interesting as possible. If not then thats because my jiejie is too boring.

The first time i met my jiejie was during the KL trip, she was in my paintball team. Since im a shy boy, i didnt really tallk much to the girls. I mean come on im not that thick skin. Well anyway, she thinks im anti-social. OK so after the KL trip, i begin to go for dinner with them, and thats how i really know her and started to talk to her. So from then on, im not anti-social to her anymore.

So after like talking to her and stuff, suddenly she just call me "didi". She think she's damn cute. But actually cause im freaking one week younger than her. So because of that i became her "didi". Im not complaing here, i mean i enjoy being her "didi". She treats me well and i always wanted a sister.

My jiejie is damn cool, what i say on my blog or like when talking, its always what she feels and want to say. Im like reading her mind. Im good! And we sort of have the some thinking and stuff, seems like we are twins. But luckily we're not, cause i dont want to look like her. Haha. And jiejie is always there for me!!

Well you guys might be wondering why is she posing with Yakult. Its because during training on Saturday i sweep the ball to her feet. And her ankle hurts like crap. Yeah so i have to treat her yakult. Abit no link, but nevermind.

No matter what, i love this small girl. Cause she's my jiejie.
PS: I must invite her for my wedding dinner. And this thick skin girl wants to sit at the VIP seats. However due to the economic recession, im going to forget her as soon as possible, i need to save as much money as possible. Probably having pot luck for wedding dinner, saves loads of money.

2008-10-19T21:15:00.003+08:00

We're the new face of failure. Prettier and younger but not any better off

I've failed! As you all can see from the quote above. I dont know how to phrase it and stuff, but i've got to face it sooner or later. Well people, im going to retain. 18 rank points, which is terrible. Though there's an improvement from my 9 points, but still it sucked like shit. I got 18 points partly due to something called moderation. So actually, i practically failed every subject except my languages.

It gets me so down down down

Thats how i fucking feel after i get back my result, and im still feeling down now. I've studied so hard for this promos and in the end all fail! You guys might be wondering and might even tell me that my study method is wrong. But i already know that after my CT, thats why i changed it. And why i know it works, because my tests have been improving. All this builds up my confidence. But after the papers, i realised that maybe im not going to make it. Prepaing myself to retain, but it still doesnt work. Knowing the fact that i put in so much effort, and in the end i still fail. This feeling sucks like crap, well not all of you guys might know how im feeling now. Maybe some of you guys had been in the same situation as me. Study super hard and in the end fail. Its super demoralising, it makes me feel like quiting school. Man whats the point study so hard but in the end still fail. Fuck it!

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood

Well after getting results, i dont have mood to do anything. And yes i feel like dying, really. Went home so that i can be alone. I wanted to drink, but then i feel like its not right to always drink when im feeling sad. Well its hard to talk to people, everyone around you are happy and stuff cause they promote. So i guess they dont understand how i feel and stuff. Im still feeling sad, down, angry, pissed off and demoralised. This feeling will not go away so easily. Maybe it might last forever.

Cry alone, ive gone away

Well im going to face this alone then.

So far away, im gone. Please dont follow me tonight. And while im gone, everything will be alright.

No matter what, im not going to promote via conditional promotion. Even though there is for me, i think its a curse in disguise. So guess i wont be in 08S25 next year, no matter what. Goodbye my friends. Months spend together with you guys made me enjoy JC, other then that i fucking hate SAJC. Those happy times spent together! Im sure going to miss fooling around with Bra, ponning lessons, listening to his ipod, sharing food and many many other stuff we do together. Well the F brothers are gone. No more going to school with rui xia, i guess the magic school bus is closing down too. Ok im just going to miss everybody. No more captains ball together, no more breakfast in macs, no more mass ponning. Everything will be gone for me.

Damn regret, i'll try to forget

Now i need to make up my mind, stay or go. I do not want to make another wrong decision that i'll regret. Coming to SAJC was the biggest regret so far, it was a fucking wrong decision that i regretted for months, and maybe years to come. So im not going to make another wrong decision, then my life will be full of regrets. Im not letting it to be that way. Im going to make this right, and im not going to regret. I really hope so. Well i got until January to think about it, but i think theres no need to rush. Im going to follow my gut feeling!

OK well i know you guess are guessing what are are those coloured phrases. Well they are all quotes from different songs. Well music is my mood my feeling, its my everything. I can relate to songs. I can feel the lyrics, the music played. I think music is one way to escape from all my sorrows and pain.

People always tell me this is part of the plan. That God's got everybody in his hands. But i can only pray that God is listening. Is he listening?

Sometimes i really wonder God exist. No offence here! But then from all my experience in life, everything seems so unfair. As if there is no justice in the end. Oh yes Christains please dont start your preaching here. No offence again. But things just makes me start wondering. Dont you guys all feel it too?

Yesterday was fun, met SAS buddies after training. Played soccer as usual, but was too tired to do anything. After that stoned here stoned there, the usual. Then decided to go to Ting's house to watched Chelsea vs Boro. Not a Chelsea fan, i really hoped that they lose. But hell no, they thrased Boro 5-0. Looking on the bright side, there were many goals. Ordered pizza, but not enough for 6 hungry boys. What was the hightlight of last night was not the game or the food. But the drink, oh yes vodka and barcadi. Man im in alcohol heaven! Poor cheney, few mouths and his dead! OK i know he's not drunk but his face was really red. Damn if Man U was playing he can be their mascott! Lets hope next week will be as fun.

Drinking is a damn expensive habit. A bottle of vodka cause like $6, and like i can finish it within a minute. $6 gone just like that! Talk about smoking, i think drinking is much more expensive. I think im going to be addicted already. Self-control, self-control!

Oh yes today is Jian birthday! Happy Birthday nut!! Once again all the celebration you guys organised i always got something on. Maybe its a curse. Like Alan birthday, i thought i have nothing on. But last minute my dad told me that its my grandma birthday. See its a freaking curse. Once again Happy Birthday Nut!!

Hey nans baby, cheer up ok? We both are in the same situation and facing the same problem. Yes i know theres more, but you just have to get through it, just like what you've said to me. And we'll get through it together. Im sure of that! But its the matter of time. And i guess you have to accept the reality, no escaping ok. Dont be like me. You will be fine, and i'll always be there for you. Cheer up!

Oh you too jiejie. Cheer up too. We are all in this together.

Here's a song for you two and everyone else who are feeling as shitty as us

Believe in yourself! =) We'll get through this together!!

2008-10-12T21:28:00.002+08:00

Im sick! I got fever, headache, flu and muscle aches. All because xinxin passed it to me, haha. No complains here, i got to skip two trainings! But these few days was really hell, especially the first day when i was sick. I dont have energy to do anything, all i can do is to lie on the bed or sofa. What's worse was is that i have headache and my neck and back hurts from lying on the sofa. As you all think that this is already bad, i have my irritating brother bothering me the whole day. So imagine lying on the bed for three days, doing nothing. Sometimes i dont even feel like sleeping, but have no chioce, need to be on the bed. I think the medicine is not working at all, i still have my headache now, as im typing. And i think i still have slight fever in the morning. My neck and shoulder is killing me, oh please please chop it off.

Getting back promos result on Thursday, i've got mix feelings now. One part of me feels like shit, cause i know im not going to do well for promos. But another side feels like, "retain then retain lor". The results willl not really bother me much, i think. But what im afraid of is what my parents will say, after seeing my results? We'll just see on thursday.

I just realised that we are all living in a screwed up world. The effects of global warming is really obvious. And we can only blame ourselves for that. What about the financial crisis? Will this be the next Great Depression? And what about wars? What's the use of fighting, does it solve problems?

But i got solutions to all problems!
1) Kill yourself to end all misery
2) If you are afraid of going to hell, get your worst enemy to kill you
3) Build a time machine and go back into time when everything is peaceful
4) Buy a one-way ticket to LaLa Land
5) Wait for Jesus to save us all!

lets all wake up from our nightmare
someone show us the light
no more pain, no more crying, no more bleeding

2008-10-09T00:12:00.002+08:00

Happy neoneo?? Haha. Past few days have been not very productive. PW week is more like a Dota/PSP/wordsearch week. Actually its quite fun and relaxing, but until i have to do work. Besides doing I&R and WR, i've discovered my new talent: Driving! Yes im so talented in Burnout! Maybe i should quit school now and be a F1 driver. Tomorrow have this OP practice session. However i think its really too rush, we have like one day to do our slides, write our scripts and practice. No time!!

I need sleep! And i just love to sleep, maybe i should try to sleep the the whole day this weekend!

And here's a song by Fall Out Boy. Im quite addicted to it!

Oh yes i want to be a rockstar too!! I want to play in a band! Emergency Escape (sec4 class band) reunite?? Haha, maybe not....

2008-10-05T22:38:00.003+08:00

Ants are like taking over my house!! There like loads of them appearing out of no where. And the source of their origin is still a mystery. But now they are taking over my laptop. Ants are appearing randomly from the screen, kepboard and speakers! Screw those antspapa's bed using the laptop and constanly killing the ants and flicking it on his bed.So now there are like dead or half dead ants on his bed! And now the frequency of ants appearing is 3 ants per minute.

Oh yes my cousin just came back from her honeymoon. She went to New Zealand! Thats like one the countries i want to visit!! Oh yes she brought back many sweets and chocolates! Yeah! Oh i want to visit Switzerland again! Yes i want to go backpack. Visit Europe and stuff! Rachel, Neoneo and Kevin!!! Remember dont forget we are going to backpack after my NS!!

Well i use to hate Fall Out Boy. But i guess after listening to "Beat It", now i find them nice! Ok not all their songs, but there are some of my favourites.

Come on papa! Please electric guitar! Maybe i should hypnotise my papa, and he can get me a guitar!! Maybe two or three! And maybe an ipod! Haha

Me and you, setting up a honeymoon. If i woke up next to you....

2008-10-04T22:18:00.003+08:00

Yes!! Today is finally coming to an end. Training sucks, as usual, but i think today training pass super fast. But my back freaking hurts! I know its spoil already. I need a freaking massage. (*signal brandon and siu kiat to massage back). But this is only the beginning of my misery, there's still loads more training to come. Come on people, please try to injure me! Break my leg or hand or back or just anywhere! Seriously i do not have any mood and any shit to go for training, or play for SA. Who cares, maybe in 2 more weeks my wish might come true!!!

Anyway, didnt went to play soccer with the guys. My legs were really aching and i went to buy shoes. I've finally got my OWN pair of turf shoes. Im was really happy! Haha. No more using my brother's turf shoe without him knowing, or using Ram's shoe which is spoiling. And i also got a new pair of running shoes! My old pair has a big hole, which is kind of cute. And when my mum saw the condition of my shoe, she freaked out. And she freaking forbid me to wear the shoes to school!

Ok now i really need to buy my electric guitar! But my father is being a !**!@!@***!**!*@!. He keep saying see if i can promoted first. Screw you! It really pisses me off when he everytime say this. Its like no link to buying guitar. Promote or retain, what is it going to do with the guitar. Plus, im paying like 50% if it. So stop whinning and get me my freaking guitar, please.

Sometimes i really wonder why am i here in SAJC. Though i really regret coming here, but kudos to my class for making it abit worth while. Hmm i used to turn to hockey to destress and to escape from everything. But now i dont even want to go for trainings. It doesnt even help at all. Now need to find alternatives. I can always ask my ever creative brother for advices. Im sure he'll give me other alternatives.

Its so empty right now. I get pissed off and angry easily. Sometimes i really dont know what to say. Im super confused about stuff, troubled actually. I prefer to be left alone sometimes.

What's wrong with me?

2008-10-01T22:52:00.002+08:00

Today is like my favourite day, CHILDREN'S DAY!!!! But it kind of sucks cause im no longer a kiddy! It sucks cause it brings back good old memories of my childhood. OK maybe not, cause i admit im still childish. But hey! who's complaining. Still can remember those childish sec4 days, where we use to hide bags on dusty cupboards, poling people for no ggod reason. What about those mass tau poks? I still can remember Jian punched my balls. Not on purpose , but because that Dog pushed him from behind. Yeah and my fellow classmates did not sympathize, but they decided that it was a good oppurtunity to pole me. AHHHH good old days, now they are gone, but will always remain in my memory.

Cheers to all my friends!!

Anyway these two days i spend time alone with myself. Its been quite awhile since im alone slacking and doing nothing. I guess i will not have any moodswings, no more emo and ofcourse no more stress!!! Ok maybe just for these two days. But i really enjoy every second of it.

Well training, which i hate like fuck, is starting. No mood to play anymore. I really regret it. Its like one of the worst decision i ever made. I do not want to be here, i dont know why i'm here and i cant wait to get out of here. But im going to bear with it. I still got the company of Nic, Sean and Ting. Thats like the only bright side

Anyway, tomorrow we got ice skating. Not that excited, but qutie eager to try. Im gonna skate like a graceful swan!!

HAPPY CHILDRENS' DAY

2008-09-30T00:15:00.004+08:00

Finally promos is over. Promote or retain, i dont really care. Anyway, after our physics paper we all went to sentosa. We have loads of fun!! We played like volleyball, soccer (OMG!! Its been like months since ive played soccer), swimming in the sea, playing monkey in the sea. And ofcourse my favourite part, dunking people in the sea. Victim number 1 was Woh, cause she said she brought three sets of clothes. So what the heck, you will be the first one. 2nd is Rachel. And Siu Kiat supposed to be the last victim, but he willing go inside the sea. After that walk aroung Vivo, had Caramel Ice Blended!!! Ate subway and then we walked around. Played photohunt and then went home with meanie rachel! The train ride was like super fast!

Dunking team!

Hehe!!

Spoiler!!!

Speak no evil, see evil, hear no evil!!

1st Victim!!

Rachel!!!

08S25! or 22?

2008-09-27T23:46:00.002+08:00

This song is freaking nice, especially the lyrics.

So if you're pissed like me
Bitches, here's what you gotta do
Put your middle fingers up in the air
Go on and say "Fuck you!"

2008-09-19T23:04:00.002+08:00

Well i hate to say this, but promos is like super near. Well i think im more prepared now, compared to the CT. Now im praying very hard that i still have time left to finish my preparations. And also hopefully i can remember what ive learnt. If i forgot or get a mental block, then die lor. Ofcourse i'll enter the exam hall full of confidence, but i cant guarentee that this level of confidence will be the same after i read the questions or after ive finish the paper. But nevertheless im going to give my best. Giving up now is not an option! Ive spent about 9 months preparing for this. Ok maybe not 9 months. But still, all the time i spent practising 10 year series, going for consultations, going out to study with friends and literally forcing myself to sit at my table for hours, all these will not go to waste. The worst thing that could happen is retain, but since im so motivated now im not going to have any negative thoughts! So reatining is not an option either.

Whatever the result will be, i know ive give my best. Im going in to the exam hall with whatever i have! I feel so good after motivating myself! Haha. Well all i have to say is all the best people!

I can really find any song with lyrics that can motivate. But this song always motivates me! Haha it gives me orgasms! Its a super nice song.

going on a hot date with ms promos!

2008-09-12T22:54:00.002+08:00

Im not going to begin my post about promos, or do any counting down. Infact im not going to post anything about promos! Its like almost every blog i go, people are counting down to promos. Are they crazy? Talking about promos will just make me more stressful!

OK firstly i will like to say is, BEING RAPED BY MY CLASSMATES IS HELL!!!! It all started with Siu Kiat and Brandon carrying me out of the class to pole me. But they failed, and monsters like Howe Yong and Glenn joined in. And that is when i got seriously raped. That damn Brandon put the chair above me and sat on it. But due to my flexibility i managed to escape.

Secondly i will like to declare my love for PE!!! Despite playing Captain's Ball everytime, but its super fun! All that running around and doing stunts with Brandon. But theres one thing that bothers me. ALMOST ALL THE GUYS IN MY CLASS ARE TALLER THAN ME!!! Except winsty and kevin.

Oh yes i think ive decided to get an Ibanez, a Fender will be too expensive. And my dad will not agree to get me a Fender.

I want to be a rockstar when i grow up!

2008-09-09T00:02:00.003+08:00

I officially give up copying chem tutorials on moodle. Theres like loads of it and it never seem to end. Well today's quote of the day is "Screw It!". So yeah! Screw the freaking chem shit. Anyway im not going to finish it by today, i think sleeping is much more important than doing chem tutorials.

Oh shit i forgot i still have to pack the chem file! FUCK!!!!

And ive found a reason why i should screw up my promos! Because by screwing it up, its like a ticket out of this miserable school! Coming to SAJC was my biggest mistake in my life. I cant believe that the reason i want to go SAJC instead of SP is i thought there is no hockey in SP. But actually there is! And now look, im suffering. I dont know what i was thinking at that time. Well there are ofcoursee other reasons and stuff like that, but i shall not post it up. Secret!

Im packing my chem file at this very instant. And its like 12.30 already! Shit!! I need to sleep badly, i still have to pack my bag!

The reason why i want promos to end quickly is because then i can get my electric guitar! Oh yes and going for Khalsa trainings! This year trip, we'll be going to Penang again to play in the Penang Sixes tournament. The last time we went to Penang was in 2006 if im not wrong. Its the tsunami year. Yes we had lots of fun! Not mentioning the stomach aches we got from eating food from the roadside stalls. Rooming with Reuben is super fun, we are always slacking in the room, and eating. But what really shock me was the tsunami. I think 2/3 days after we came back from Penang, the tsunami strike. And the beach we went to was completely destroyed. Imagine what if we came back 2 days later......

Well this year's trip will be as fun as any other hockey trips! Hope Reuben will be going too! Then we'll be roommates for like 3 years?

Yes ive finally finished packing my file!

wo hen lei le, wo yao shui jiao!

Goodnight people!

2008-09-03T21:27:00.002+08:00

Studying at home is really a pain in my ass! I cannot even complete a chapter without being distracted, by myself. Today i wanted to wake up in the morning to study but in the end, i fall asleep. And i hate people who are counting down to promos. Oh please stop! Its freaking killing me and giving me loads of stress. So people stop counting down on your blogs or on MSN. Oh i seriously beg all of you!

1) Im going to promote
2) Im going to get at least a C for all subjects
3) Im going to wear my pants higher, carry a backpack and pull it up high. Going to be a nerd!
4) I should stop using the laptop, like immediately.

My targets! Haha. Motivating myself to study wont help, but still might as well just try. I really dont have the mood and inspiration to study. I feel like burning all my books, notes and tutorials. I want to burn down SAJC. I want to fly to the moon and never come back! I cannot find a purpose in education. I want to die! Not literally, but spiritually and mentally.

Oh can i just disappear into thin air? Just fly away!

Wow i can make myself so emo, so angry and piss! Not bad! I think i have split personality, or like there's 2 Fongwais. One is the happy one, and another is the emo one. Kind of like the Devil and the Angel. But it seems like the Emo Fongwai is the dominating one! Hello Emo Fongwai!!

Im so tired now. Going to sleep soon. Feel like waking up a month later. Hmm i feel like swearing out loud now. Oh well.

2008-08-29T23:05:00.003+08:00

FUCK!!! Why my laptop cannot download my creative disk!! Now how am i going to put new songs into my Creative. Shit shit shit!!!

This week im super lethargic. Although i sleep like 11 plus, i still feel super sleepy in school. And the worst is in the afternoon and night, i still feel sleepy. So i didnt study much! Its a freaking nightmare!

Service learning was really an eye-opener for me. Me and Glenn spend like 1hour plus thinking and figuring out the chord of "I love you, you love me". One freaking song! And the song is my only song i play the guitar..... Nevermind its ok, haha. OK because i cant freaking sing and play at the same time, too lousy! Anyway, I was abit nervous at first. Singing to a group of strangers is really something new. I was really afraid that the kids will not be interested. But actually they were OK, and especially when we sing the kiddy songs. The kids got freaking high when we sing "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star". The 1st session we only sing a few songs, and Chan Yam Yoke was saying that we should sing more songs. Idiot! Anyway, the whole Service Learning me and Glenn were in the hall and having a hell of a time. Especially during the 2nd session, we got freaking high that we sing alot of random songs. And i got so tired that i cant really sing after that.

My only guitar performance HAHAHA!

Me singing!!!

Twinkle twinkle little star

DONT STEAL MY FOOD!!!!!!

Third Law of Neoneo: Shes is small

I was sleepy OK!!

Thursday went for Khalsa training. PS got us to play this match called the "Bermuda Triangle". He says it helps to build match fitness. And the game is quite complicated. There are 3 goal, and when you score at one, you cant socre at the same goal. Until the next goal is scored at the either 2 goal. Its super fun though. Oh and Rueben came! Its been so long since ive saw him. My roomate for dont know how many years. And we are still going to be roommates for this year trip!

I need to go for runs!

Today Teacher's Day, ponned school to visit teachers in SASS. Ms Sng in particular. Shes like the best teacher one can ever have.

Oh on Wednesday me and Dog went to buy a custom make card for Ms Sng. And being boys from boys school, we dont really have that artistic talent. So lets just say we have abit of problems looking for nice stuff to put on the card. But i think Dog's classmates did a pretty good job to make the card.

Ok back to today. So almost all the 4SA people in SAJC ponned school. Walked around the school, saw many teachers who had taught us. And there is this particular incident that is really funny, but embarassing. Ok maybe its only embarassing for me. Anyway, we were walking around school to look for Ms Sng. And someone said that he saw her, and most of us agree that the teacher walking donwstairs was her. So we all decided to walk to the staircase to wait for her. Being the guy right infront, im the 1st one to wave to the "Ms Sng". And the "Ms Sng" waved back, and when I walked closer.... SHIT!!! Its not Ms Sng! HAHA, Blame it on my bad eyesight!

After that went to Just Acia, wasnt that hungry though. And Anthony treat me!! Thanks! Then after went to play LAN. Im not really into LAN gaming, yeah. But had my first DOTA game. I think im playing it after promos! Haha.

Then after much stonning we went to Carl's Junior. Did many dumb stuff, like hmm i shall not say it here. But anyway Jian, Dog and Nic know what im talking about. I wonder if Andrew found the badge...

Studying tommorrow! Dog say must push for 7 hours!

2008-08-25T20:30:00.006+08:00

Joel, me, Isaac. I look soooo smart =)

Talk about bad timing, everytime when i have ideas and things to blog about, im not using the
laptop. But, like now, when im using the laptop i'll forget all i want to say.

Well Killer Monday is over. Chem and physics tests done! What made my day is that Mrs Kang said that she got nothing else to teach, so it means no tutorial for today! But being a good boy, i use the time wisely to study physics, which didnt really helps. And ofcourse to catch some sleep. I seriously need to sleep! Not that i sleep late, but i always feel like i dont have enough sleep. No matter how early i sleep, i still feel tired. Coffee wont help, i can freaking drink 10 big cups of coffee and go to sleep straight away.

EOM draft 2 is killing me, i cant freaking think! I have no ideas and i have no idea what to write. Please some inspiration? Think, focus and concentrate. Think, focus and concentrate......

Service learning tommorrow! Im so excited, i cant wait to sing for the mentally challenged children. They will be mesmorised by my beautiful and sweet voice. Haha. But there's one problem, i need to freaking memorise the lyrics for "You and Me" by Lifehouse! I can do it! Haha.

I have so many things i want to do! Like packing my file, its like exploding! "Time is running fast away". Time is so freaking precious! One freaking hour means a lot now!

Im going for Khalsa training on Thursday!!! Yes! Because Friday dont have any lessons!

Oh yes, i need to get disposable contact lens. Because i cant freaking see the hockey ball after 7pm.

Back to singing!

2008-08-23T22:20:00.002+08:00

GERMANY ARE OLYMPIC CHAMPIONS!!
The score was 1-0, goal scored by Christopher Zeller. What a nice drag flick.

Next monday will be a killer! Chem test and Physics MSA and i havent studied at all. So screwed. Being fongwai, i'll find a way to study everything in a day. Today im just too tired to do anything, or maybe do 1 chapter. Im just too lazy.

As promos draws closer, the stress is increasing. Its like im being tau pok by Cheney, and as each passes, more cheneys are added to the tau pok. Get it? And i cant freaking study at home!! There's like too many distractions. My bed, guitar, my brother, laptop and food. I cant freaking sit for 2 hours straight. Its time to study outside!!!

Today is like the last training until after promos. Finally training today is enjoyable. I just love the 2 vs 1. Its like what we always practice in SASS/ Khalsa trainings. But ofcourse PS will always add some twist to it. Match was super fun, love it!

Then had Founder's Day. The school had sent me a letter informing me about the ceremony. There is also a dress code list, and it clearly states that I have to wear black shoes. But being a smart ass, i wore white shoes. And Mrs Low was erm abit shock. In the end had to ask Jian to bring his black converse sneakers. The ceremony was alright. The speakers are quite entertaining, and Paul made his speech. At the end, our belovered Mr Yee lead us in the school song. Like always everyone sang with passion and like always I can feel the SA spirit. After that took some photos which i'll upload soon, my laptop bluetooth is just screwing with me now. But the most disappointing thing is there's not enough free food! I've starve myself for 5 hours just to whack the food, but in the end i was like a begger eating food from other people platel. Where's my sandwiches? My curry puff? My chicken wings and drumsticks? Cakes? Arghh!! And worse the drinks they serve is like crap. The coffee taste like shit and the only cold drink is cold water. I seriously think the school is on budget. Maybe because last year there are lots of unfinished food. And this year i've come prepared for the food and in the end the food i've eaten only fill 0.00000001% of my stomach.

After that fetch my brother to Delta for his Div 2 game. Then my mum keep driving to different location for dinner but its either close or too crowded, and we have to rush back to watch hockey finals. So in the end we went to Toa Payoh for dinner.

Tommorrow have to go to Glenn's house to prepare for service learning. Must figure out the chords for songs we are going to sing at Rainbow Centre. Going to cycle to his house, provided my muscle dont ache tommrrow.

I have so many things to blog about, like about my irritating brother. Im super duper tired, going to crash soon. Chop off my head please! I need alcohol!

Oh i havent opened my prize yet

2008-08-18T22:25:00.004+08:00

Good Charlotte: Hold On

This world

This world is cold

But you don't

You don't have to go

You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely, and no one seems to care

Your mother's gone and your father hits you

This pain you cannot bear

But we all bleed the same way as you do

And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go

Hold on it gets better than you know

Your days

You say they're way too long

And your nights

You can't sleep at all

Hold on

And you're not sure what you're waiting for, but you don't want to know more

And you're not sure what you're looking for, but you don't want to know more

But we all bleed the same way as you do

And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go

Hold on it gets better than you know

Don't stop looking, you're one step closer

Don't stop searching, it's not over

Hold on

What are you looking for?

What are you waiting for?

Do you know what you're doing to me?

Go ahead...What are you waiting for?

Hold on if you feel like letting go

Hold on it gets better than you know

Don't stop looking, you're one step closer

Don't stop searching, it's not over

Hold on if you feel like letting go

Hold on it gets better than you know

Hold on

GC rocks! I just love their lyrics and the music video. Its super meaningful. This song made me feel much more better. Check out the lyrics! "Hold on if you feel like letting go. Hold on it gets better than you know". I can relly relate to the lyrics, its like bible verses! So people who are troubled dont give up!

This Saturday i have to attend Founder's Day, top in Geography. Thanks thanks! Haha, jian must make a big big banner for me! Oh Jian thought that the school will give me cash. Want me to treat you idiot! But sadly the "kiam siap" school gave me a $50 Borders voucher card. And i gave it to my dad, im such a good boy! Anyway, Jian if you want a treat you can eat my voucher card. Haha. Oh there will also be free food! The food is not bad, the curry puffs, cakes and chicken wings! Last year we ate like one big plate of chicken wings and curry puffs.

I guess we were super hungry that day.

Argh im craving for alcohol now! I want a carton of Jolly Shandy. OMG yes! My dad got put a bottle of beer in the fridge, going to share with him! I think im becoming an alcoholic.

Back to studying!

Oh yes i'll be ok thanks!

2008-08-16T22:58:00.002+08:00

To hate is much more easier than to love. Ive become like a small angry little boy who hates everything. There are so many things in my mind now. Im troubled and confused. ARGH this feeling really suck. Somebody help please? Need somebody to talk to. I should get one of those robots, then i can talk to it. Im counting down to the days im graduating from SAJC. I cant wait!! I still got 1 year and 4 months. There's always a shortcut to stuff. If i go to poly, then it'll be 4months or even lesser. SWEET! I hate every single second of my life now. I hardly smile and im getting moody. Bring back the good old days. Balls to my sad life now.

I need a hug!

we shall rock tonight

2008-08-13T21:30:00.003+08:00

Argh!! Why am i doing here. i should be studying!! Waiting for Xinxin to come online to do GP, now its already 9.30. She suppose to come online at 9! Nevermind i shall be patient and wait.

Seriously i think school sucks. This feeling never ever happened to me. The thought of retaining sucks. As each day pass, the chances of me retaining increases. I regretted not going to poly. Maybe i should go at the end of the year. I cannot stand JC life and SAJC.

Yesterday night i didnt have a good night sleep. I was thinking of suicide. The thought of suicide just creeps into my mind. And i spent freaking 30minutes thinking about it. And ive concluded that there's no easy and painless way to commit suicide. Lets say if you want to slit your wrist, what if you didnt cut properly. If you want to jump from a building, half-way down you'll regret. But it'll be too late. Unless Spiderman or Superman or Teen Titans or Ben 10 come and save you. What about stabbing yourself. It'll be too painful, and maybe you are not strong enough. So imagine going through the pain and not dying. These are just a few examples.

Ive never been so unhappy in my whole freaking life. Why cant i be like my brother. He's so carefree, he doesnt care about his studies. And he still can at least pass. Maybe its because of the cigrattes. Hmm maybe i should also start smoking.

OK no more negative thoughts!!! For now....

2008-08-09T23:06:00.002+08:00

So many things to say, but forgot like half of it. Hopefully as i blog, i'll remember.

This week is just fantastic. Kang Bitch started my week well. Yes i know, of all person her? The lady with two butts informed the class that next Monday is a holiday. I didnt know that. And apparently that bitch saw what i did, and she shifts me to the front of the class. Its a nightmare! Sitting right under her nose, i can see her FATS!! I think i need to change my specs. Anyway as i thought my eyes will suffer for 3 periods, but because of 2nd grade friend she walked out of the class. Sweet! But ofcourse the following lessons of GP is still like crap.

Friday ponned school. Its becoming a habit of mine. Well National Day celebration in SASS is not as nice as last time. But there's still boxing.

Then went back to SAJC for pilot run. I had fun throwing water bombs at my fellow classmates. Apparently the waterbombs i threw at Neoneo didnt burst. Too fat!! It just rebound and drop on the floor. After that they all went to Dhouby for lunch. I went to Far East to taper me pants. Then went to Airport to send Bryan off to the States. Dog suggested that we go to Peopeye's to try the chicken, and it turn out not as "nice" as we thought it would be. After that went home to pack my shirt. Then met Sean and David at Kovan MRT. We then walked to Lester's house for the BBQ and stayover.

I discovered my talent of BBQ-ing fish and marshmellows. Oh ya the marshmellows were NICE! I want to have it for breakfast, lunch and dinner! Me and Mok wanted to get more food and marshmellows. At first we went to Cheers, the ice-cream there is $1.10. So we went to 7-11, it costs $1.20. Luckily i saw the SPC, the ice-cream there is only 90cents. We bought a carton of Jolly Shandy. We thought the cashier will check our IC, but she didnt. Cycling back, we decided to share a can at the road junction. NOT WISE! Its freaking 7th month, and drinking at a road junction at a semi-ulu place.

I slept about a few hours, on the sofa. Stupid Jon was leading against my leg. Woke up with a backache. Drank the remaining Jolly Shandy with Dog, Nic and Jon. What a way to start off a day. Fooled around in Lester's room, mass tau pok, pulling down Mok's pants, sending messages on Mok's phone and thrasing Jian 9-0 on Winning Eleven.

Went back with David, met my parents at PP. Dinner at my grandmother's house was great. Mushrooms with lots of chilli sauce! Super nice. I had a craving for ice-cream so i searched the fridge, but sadly there's no stock. So mum went to buy. Coconut and chocolate ice-cream!! YUMMY!

My craving for sweet things never end. I want to open a candy shop and ice-cream shop!

I cant wait to get my electric guitar. Playing songs on my auntie's old classical guitar sucks.

Blogging when im super tired sucks.

Monday is a holiday! Yeah!

GP sucks

Chinese sucks

schook sucks

SAJC sucks

Being random rocks!!

2008-08-02T23:12:00.002+08:00

I got lots of things to say!!! This week is full of ups and downs. Well my father has finally agree to pay 50% of my guitar. Yes like that will help, i'll still have to pay 500-600 bucks, Hello! i dont work. Money dont fall from the sky and grow on trees. I wonder how am i going to get that much of money. Hmmm i wonder if robbing the bank will work. Lets just see my opportunity cost. Maybe conning my auntie, ive successfully coned her before. Im not sure if she will fall for it again. Maybe i should negotiate with my dad, which is like super hard. Oh well lets see how it goes. So people please kindly donate to Fongwai's guitar fund!

This week had PTM. This year is a very special year for me. I get to meet someone important, gosh i was super excited. I get to meet the DP Ms Mabel Chia. At first i was afraid that she'll just eat me up. But she didnt, if not i wont be blogging now right? I didnt get screwed by her. But she told me about my grades and stuff, and we did some analysis on what went wrong. Hopefully it helps, i also got a study organizer. Nice!! PTM also got freebies to take. Arghh! i need to study super hard. I dont want to retain. One more extra year in this fucked up school will really just kill me.

I wonder what will happen if i retain. Should i just end my life? Its already miserable enough. Maybe not, im too puss to kill myself. I really regret not going to poly, fuck! I can get into my Areonautical course, shit! I think things will be different if im in poly now. Should i go poly at the end of this year? If i weigh the pros and cons, i think theres more pros then cons. The happiest thing is that i can say byebye to SAJC. But i will waste this year. Lets see how it goes.

Its bitching time!! Today special guest is Mrs Kang, shes my GP teacher. She's old and she's fat, she also wants to be pregnant again. FAT hope hahaha, man i just want to puke. She sucks, she cant teach, she's a bitch, she have no link, she uses "chim" words but wrongly. If yoou ask her a question, she'll not answer the question and you never get what she is saying. Let me illustrate this. Imagine you are a passenger in a taxi, and Mrs Kang is the taxi driver. You are in Boon Lay and you want to go to Changi Airport. But instead of going by PIE, she'll bring you around Pasir Panjang, to Ang Mo Kio, to Yio Chu Kang then to Orchard, then to Woodlands, cross the check point to JB, then back to SG, around Joo Chiat, then to Marine Parade and in the end you end up in TanahMerah Ferry terminal. Get the idea? I seriously think she failed her GP.

Today have open house, actually it just a freaking CCA display. And the number of people who went, like peanuts. No offence Jian. Played tennis with Brandon, played passing with Howe Yong, waterpolo. Im so talented! Haha. Well i basically just slack around. Suppose to walk around with meanie Rachel. But in the end she have to go for her Canoeing training. PS me again!! Haha, just joking.

After that went to play soccer with dog, mok, ting, jian, sean and alan. Played with this team, and this particular guy. A freaking Chelsea supporter, he keep fouling people and when people foul him he not happy. I try to catch him with my elbow a few times, but sadly he escaped. He's such a bastard. Well maybe all Chelsea supporters are like that.

After that went to Just Acia for dinner. And the place is freaking crowded, but we didnt wait too long to have a table. Ate spicy chicken, people like Mok and Jian "kay kiang", cannot take spicy things. Haha. Then they played Dai Di , then the loser got to eat the kimchi which is like super not nice. And every round we add something, which make it sicker. Luckily i dont know how to play. Actually people teach me, but dont bother to learn. Ah yes, lucky Cheney wasnt there, he would have just finish all the leftovers.

I just miss hanging out with them, we always have our stuff on. Maybe holidays we everyday hang out. Still missing those sec4 days. No class can ever replace 4SA. But i cant really compare 4SA to any other classes. There are so many factors to consider.

Its kind of weird, because my feeling towards hockey now is crap. I suddenly just hate going for trainings. The passion to play for my school is gone. Maybe its just that fucked up feeling i have towards SAJC. I cant wait for promos to finish, ive got to self-train and go for Khalsa training. PS say we will be training for Premier League, im so excited. And he say we must carry Under 18 title.

Fucked up time, fucked up life, fucked up langauge, got to stop using those vulgarities. But i find it very useful. Ahh screw this. Hopefully this miserable year will be over. And maybe end with a high note. And i wouldnt pray next year will be better, i think it will be worst. No point praying though.

*points middle finger to the world and to everyone

2008-07-26T23:40:00.002+08:00

This week sucks, wait any schooling week sucks. Everyday i have to drag myself out of bed at 5.45. And every night i have to do my tutorials, study for tests or revise. This sucks, i cant wait for holidays to come, im going to sleep like a pig, eat like a pig, play like a pig and do many more stuff like a pig. Oh and i cant wait to get an electric guitar, and Ibanez i hope. Lets all bow our heads and pray that fongwai gets an Ibanez by November. Amen! Exams are like so near. STUDY STUDY AND STUDY. I feel like a "qin hong" again. Lets all pull our pants up high, cut our own sideburns, wear nerdy specs and kick like a robot. Im sure we'll all pass our promos with flying colours.

Well trainings seriously sucks. Gym trainings makes me feel weaker, instead of making me stronger. My freaking muscle will ache like for dont know how many billion years. And it affects how i play during saturday trainings. And drills and stuff on saturday cannot compare to what we do in SASS. As there are new players, we have to start from the basics, like passing and stuff. I dont mind, but hopefully we can do more "high level" stuff, like 2 on 1 and more. Ive stopped going for Khalsa trainings, have to focus more on my studies now.

National Day is coming, and it means another 4SA clique meeting! Cant wait eh guys?

Well bitchy teachers seriously spoils my freaking day, or maybe my week. Well to ms chia, you fucking suck! You cant even teach, you simply just flash answers and let us copy. Whats the point of doing your work if you dont mark and i wont know my mistakes. Use your brains lar. Your frequent PMS gets on my nerves. You scold for no good reason, and its according to your mood. You can randomly just scold, kudos! And i cant wait for you to send me out of the class again. But please no one-to-one talk again. Because what you said makes no sense, you said you are "flexible". My ass! Since when? You said something about "give and take", but what i see is just all ' scold scold scold". You said after i left the class you have no mood to teach. So you think i freaking care? You are the one who sent me out, and now you are regretting? Too bad. And you want me to feel guilty? Hell no! I didnt regret on my actions. I was simply following your instructions, " get out!". Well i hope my remaining few months with you will be your living hell.

Ah it always feels so nice to bitch. Hopefully i can find more things to bitch about.

Happy tree friends on youtube =)

2008-07-23T23:24:00.002+08:00

Fuck you bitch for always picking on us. Fuck you bitch for always scolding us for no good reason.

Fuck my life, anger and frustration fills my soul. Metal adds oil to the fire, i like it. I can freaking pick up my guitar and write songs with satanic verses now, maybe not. Anger is taking over me, my mood swings are more frequent. Is there a problem with me? Screw all this.

School sucks! Dont like a single bit about it. The fucking teachers sucks, bitches. Are they even qualified? You know who im talking about.

Miss 4SA, im going to build a time machine so i can go back to sec 4 period. Its where all the fun and how we bond really close together. I dont want to grow up. Lets play soccer after chem lessons. Stay back after school for maths with ms sng, but end up talking crap. Stonning at places, tau pok and pole!!!

FUCK ALL THIS SHIT!!!!

2008-07-20T22:06:00.003+08:00

I must apologize for not blogging for a million minutes, i shall calculate that for you guys, thats about a week plus. Well life is really boring, nothing to bitch about. Homework seems to be piling up despite me finishing them. Fuck education! Whats the point of it? To get a "good" job? Now education is fucking screwing my life. It brings pain and misery. There's no fucking joy in education, i doubt i'll remember what was taught 5 years from now. Now i hope hockey can numb this pain and misery, but i doubt so. Its like a burden now. Training still makes me tired, and my muscle always hurt after fitness. What about music? I think all that screaming and lyrics with words like "blood, misery, pain, murder, death" really helps. Well ive got nothing to say. Bye

2008-07-12T23:05:00.003+08:00

Im busy busy busy busy busy. Suddenly homework and tests seems to pile up, like magic. If only i can make them disappear. I dont think can finish what i planned to do by tommorrow. Lets see what we have here, GP, chem assignment, chem test, chem practical, econs tutorial ( cant find it ), EOM and many more i guess.

Well CT is all screwed, im failing like crap. Now im used to that failing feeling. Remember when i was in Sec 3 and 4 when i fail chem tests and still be proud of it. Ofcourse who can forget about amaths. Sec 4 mid years i finished the paper in 15min! Thank you all i know im smart.

I seriously think that im attracting lots of boys. Haha read this:

DONA... says:
i'm loving u more and more each day

Man im so happy =). Oh dont be jealous Peng, you are still loved too. Oh and many others who i forgot that i love you guys. Haha. Damn gay.

My ideal superpower is to have the ability to extend the number of weekends and decrease the number of weekdays, most probably to 0 days.

2008-07-06T23:04:00.002+08:00

Yesterday had 4SA dinner. I shall not comment on the food. But i get to see most of my classmates, oh wait half the class are in SAJC. We have our top student, "clap clap", Paul who went to NJC. Our RJC friend, Chia Qin Hong, apparently did not turn up. I guess he's too busy mugging. I really wonder how is he doing in NYJC. Maybe should get Jian to find out. Peng our only betrayer, went to ACSI dare to show his face. Haha, nah i LOVE him. And he still reserves one side of his chest for me. Before we left, Peng came up with this brilliant idea of clipping the clips at the food counter. So that they'll cook the food and serve it to an empty table. After that, like always, we stonned outside. And finally someone suggested walking to Dhouby Ghaut. Upon reaching our destination, we stonned again, because they were deciding to stay at Lester's house or not. Well i didnt because i'll certainly miss my bed. Went home with Jon, and on our way abck, there was this Indian man who suddenly talk to Jon about parachute and some other stuff. Jon was ROOTED, haha.

Now i really wish money can grow on trees. I really want to plant $50 notes into cute little cactus. I want: ipod classic, GX 6000 jumbo, a new turf shoes, electric guitar (Ibanez), shirts, shorts and many more i guess.

Oh ya please someone organize another 4SA gathering again. The previous one wasnt good! Oh how can i forget to bitch about Germayne. Isnt he our favourite subject to bitch about right Peng? I really do miss the days when we were real sarcastic to him. Oh ya his brothers all resembles him, yeah! They all have the FUCK face, haha. Ugly!

2008-06-30T21:57:00.003+08:00

I wont see you tonight Part 1. Avenged Sevenfold

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and loved

It's building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me,
You're not the one to place the blame
As bottles call my name
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and most of all I loved
But I can't see myself that way
Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

So far away, I'm gone.
Please don't follow me tonight
And while I'm gone everything will be alright

No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight

Well this song shows how i feel now. Really sad, frustrated and angry. Got back chem results, and got what, a freaking U for chem. After all the hardwork i put in, i really wonder if hardwork is key to good grades. Going to find out what went wrong, like what my uncle told me " Dont look back, you cant do anything to change the past. But you can change your future". And im going to read this book my father pass to me " Failing forward" hope this dusty book on my messy table will inspire me. Well econs is really expected, and physics if i pass it i think my mum will strike her 4D and my brother will stop smoking. Maths im the most afraid one, spend so much time praticing but hopefully its not the same case as chem where i fail. At least an E please?

Speaking about my brother, i really have to salute him. My mum talk about illegal cigrattes and say some contain substances that can kill. So the smart one says " Oh so cannot smoke illegal one, then legal ones are safe" What the hell, use your freaking brains please. Illegal or legal, both are lethal, can kill, causes all sorts of cancer. So theres not much difference, its either you die from a long painful death or a long painful death.

Well things on a brighter side, or not. Theres this weird guy who addded me on friendster then on msn. He started the conversation like normally, then he like introduced himself, telling me his height and weight. This is when things get sort of weird. He started telling me that he's a Bisexual and asked me if im one. WHAT THE FUCK! Bastard, do i look like a freaking BI to you, you pervert sick bastard. Why are all these weird people adding me on friendster and msn. ARGH!!

Well things are surely going to change. " Sorrow sank deep inside my blood"

2008-06-29T22:03:00.003+08:00

Well dog ask me to do, being a good puppy i shall do this:

1) Why am i doing this?
For dog lar
2) Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket
Jupiter =) First person on Jupiter beat that suckers
3) What's your favourite thing to do?
Bitch, be retarded, do stupid stuff
4) Do you think money can buy happiness?
is it on sale?
5) If you have one dream to come true, what will it be?
hope that my other dreams will come true too
6) Do you believe you can survive without money?
if you can eat, drink and breathe them. If not yes
7) Have you ever played an instrument?
violin and guitar
8) If you win $1million, what will you do?
i wouldnt believe my damn luck.
9) What do you think of yourself?
im a human just like all of you
10) List 3 good points of the person who tagged you
my doggy, bestfriend, i love you
11) What makes you happy?
myself
12) What type of person you hate most?
if you are worse than my brother, i fucking hate you
13) Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
provided in 10 years time the roads have mirror, if not i dont see myself 10 years down the road
14) If you have superpower, what will it be?
erm i want to fly, have supervision (my eyesight sucks)
15) What do you think is the most important in your life?
friendship ofcourse
16) If it's the end of the world, what will be your last wish?
go back to the start
17) If you have a chance to choose, will you go back in time? When will it be?
Ofcourse yes! Sec 4 time, but ofcourse without the existence of william john
18) Whats the most significant event in your life?
the day im born
19) Are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him/her?
him yes, her depends
20) What's your next aim?
go to sleep for like a week or more

I shall not continue this freaking chain question thingy. Should be asleep now, euro 2008 finals is like starting soon. Need my beauty sleep NOW! Bye and goodnight!!