MY PHOTOGRAPHIC MEMORIES.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Chinese New Year! My brother favourite festival, cause he can collect ang bao. Anyway, i think this year sucks! CNY just have to fall nicely on Monday and Tuesday. Its such a rush, didnt even visit my grand aunts and other relatives. Whats worst, i fall sick before CNY. And as i thought i recover, on CNY itself i had stomach ache. FUCK! All the yummy yummy food! Urgh, and my shit is freaking black/ greyish.
I sort of miss school. Not the sitting in lectures, not understanding a single shit. Or failing whatever test i take. But i miss friends around me, and fooling around in class. Maybe giving teachers hell. I feel quite isolated now, its beginning to turn me into an anti-social. All i can talk to is this four walls. Maybe my pillow and bolster. I cant wait for term to start, but then im too lazy to go to school anymore.
I have not use my brain for God knows how many months. And i think its dead. Ive been a very very good boy for not touching alcohol too! Actually its hard to drink when you share a room with your brother. Anyway alcohol is expensive too!
Beep test tomorrow, damn hopefully can pass. Have not exercise for like 2 weeks, muscles are weak. And im physically dead. Maybe next week i shall start running and stuff. Get myself to shape for Premier League. Speaking of hockey, i think im starting to get tired of it. Usually after a long layoff, i'll be eager to get back. But now im not even eager to pick up my stick and fly to CCAB. I think im going nowhere with it. Maybe its time to hang up my stick and retire. Im getting old anyway. And my shoulder socket is loose, it was out of place. Thats why my arm didnt recover.
Life's getting boring anyway...
Everyone seems so busy. Maybe they should be.
I'm always wishing,
I'm always wishing too late
For things to go my way
It always ends up the same
MEMORIES FADE.PICTURES WONT.{11:59 AM}
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Monday, January 19, 2009
I'm half handicap now. My arm freaking hurts! Taking one for the team, persuaded by PS to come for today's game. And now im suffering the consequences, now even have problem lifting up my arm. Shitty arm!
Today had the most wonderful dream. Please let it be a deja vu, it was the happiest period of my life.
But now i'll be glad if some kind soul donate his/her right arm to me!
bleeding hearts shed no tears
MEMORIES FADE.PICTURES WONT.{12:25 AM}
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Saturday, January 17, 2009
Johnny Walker is nice! There goes my streak of not touching alcohol. And its just a freaking small cup.
Soccer was like the usual. New shoes! But my shooting sucks hahaha. Hit the fucking post how many times. Then after that played against Germayne's brother. Well like brother, like brother. Both of them have the same face, the "whack-me-please" face. Both talk a lot. But hey, i kicked the ball to his chest, pushed him down. All by accident ofcourse.
Nic injured my feet. I think my metatarsal is fractured.
Today dinner is budget! Opposite Indian Temple (or Indian Temter by jian). After went to the spider web.
The spider web has two uses. 1) climb 2) pole jon. And it has become a weekly tradition to pole jon, or just rape him. But we should'nt pole him so much, else he cant have shot gun.
Today i finally bought magarita by MYSELF! I was denied by the bitch on wednesday. She said that only 19 can buy. But today its another lady, and she didnt even check my IC. Heh! Now i know when to get alcohol.
MEMORIES FADE.PICTURES WONT.{11:26 PM}
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Sunday, January 11, 2009
Yesterday sucks! An hour of soccer and some idiots came to lock up the street soccer court. "We're following orders from the town council". And whats worse, we didnt even have team to play against. All we do is to play tennis, everyone against Alan. Balls! How can they lock the street soccer court up? Have they thought of people like US? Our dreams will be dashed, and we cant nurture our talent.
Anyway, went to town with Alan, Dog and Mok. Alan bought his CD, Dog got his cute haircut. Went to the basement of Heeren. Played with paper boats. And i freaking spoiled one of the lanterns. And i didnt know there's a camera!
Fish and Co for dinner. Swordfish with Mok. I didnt use my hands! After that poled Jon, failed to pole Cheney. Then watched Jon get rape.
Went home around 10 plus
MEMORIES FADE.PICTURES WONT.{10:54 PM}
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Tuesday, January 6, 2009
I've just received a SA alumni letter, and this really inspired me. It changes my perspective of life
"I hope you remember what i wrote to you last year. I reminded you that every one of you was made for success - that is what God intended. He has never created a failure. I trust that belief has brought you through some good learning experiences in the past year. I pray for each of you that your journey will be a fruitful one of finding your true self." Mrs Belinda Charles.
Though im not a Christain or anything. But it gave me a glimpse of hope. Though i may not know what lies ahead. But im sure no matter what, if i give my best something will happen. The results may seem bad, but maybe its a blessing in disguise.
Im optimistic now, and im a happy boy!
MEMORIES FADE.PICTURES WONT.{10:40 PM}
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Saturday, January 3, 2009
Another year gone, here comes another one. Time has pass faster and faster. I think its a sign from above, that my time on Earth is coming to the end. Anyways, last year was really shit and fuck. Hopefully this year will be way different. I will want to fucking forget about those fucked-up memories. But sadly, i will have to learn from my mistakes. Starting afresh! 2009 will always be different, just like every year. Im fucking 18! Soon... God its the age where i can make my own miracles! Drink Drink Drink Drink Drink! Im going to be in heaven. Maybe i should even build some compartment under my bed to store alcohol. And yeah i can learn how to drive. But after years sitting in my parents' car and my mum driving. It scared the balls out of me. And surprisingly no accidents yet, touch wood! So im kind of afraid to drive, but my dad assured me its going to alright. I always wanted to learn how to drive a motocycle, it sort of runs in my family. But then my mum doesnt allow. And my smart dad told me that i can learn it secretly. Whats the point?
I guess 2009 is a door to new opportunities. Gosh im so optimistic here! Well treasure every second of my damn life, if im really going to die soon. Well hello to poly too! I think im starting to lose interest in hockey? Or maybe its the long lay-off. My arm still hurts, Mr Denis told me it'll take about 3months. There goes Under21 tournament? Doubtful for premier league. Well im really that sad. Maybe the prospect of drinking every night makes me happy. "Professional Drinker" sounds good to me.
Missed countdown thingy with my friends, cause im was on the freaking cruise. Well cant complain much, must be grateful? Well went with parents, aunties and uncles. Hell it was boring, the only person around my age was my brother. Time passed quite fast. Went drinking in the bar, lets just say the cocktail is really cock. Let me show them how to mix! Hahaha. Dancing on the last day was abit erm ok. Uncle pangsei-ed me, and the rain spoil everything! Wanted to try to get high, but with parents around not a good idea.
I love travelling, sometimes i dream that i can travel around the world alone.
Some people have new year resolution and all that shit. But why? Setting goals and targets will just make you disappointed in the end. And at the end of the year, you all are going to look back and regret, "oh i should have done this done that". Aint going to happen to me! Going to live my life day by day. Dreams are meant to be dashed, goals are not meant to achieved and you'll never hit the bulls eye on the target. Call me a wet blanket for all i care. I think people like qin hong will kill me after reading this. Its just me!
So wait up, I'm not sleeping alone again tonight
There's so much to dream about
There must be more to my life
So wait up I'm not sleeping alone again tonight
Between the light and shallow waves is where I'm going to die
MEMORIES FADE.PICTURES WONT.{11:25 PM}
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