MY PHOTOGRAPHIC MEMORIES.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Argh!! Why am i doing here. i should be studying!! Waiting for Xinxin to come online to do GP, now its already 9.30. She suppose to come online at 9! Nevermind i shall be patient and wait.
Seriously i think school sucks. This feeling never ever happened to me. The thought of retaining sucks. As each day pass, the chances of me retaining increases. I regretted not going to poly. Maybe i should go at the end of the year. I cannot stand JC life and SAJC.
Yesterday night i didnt have a good night sleep. I was thinking of suicide. The thought of suicide just creeps into my mind. And i spent freaking 30minutes thinking about it. And ive concluded that there's no easy and painless way to commit suicide. Lets say if you want to slit your wrist, what if you didnt cut properly. If you want to jump from a building, half-way down you'll regret. But it'll be too late. Unless Spiderman or Superman or Teen Titans or Ben 10 come and save you. What about stabbing yourself. It'll be too painful, and maybe you are not strong enough. So imagine going through the pain and not dying. These are just a few examples.
Ive never been so unhappy in my whole freaking life. Why cant i be like my brother. He's so carefree, he doesnt care about his studies. And he still can at least pass. Maybe its because of the cigrattes. Hmm maybe i should also start smoking.
OK no more negative thoughts!!! For now....
MEMORIES FADE.PICTURES WONT.{9:30 PM}
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